smudges of red

i wanted to rape you in the fitting room

2007-03-01T06:43:00.000-08:00

like i told bf,something is bothering me.big time.period.
i still dont know what it is.
felt so stressed lately.
still am.
depression.kills.

bye .

weehoo

2007-03-01T05:08:00.000-08:00

Before,i used to have a big NO for all these sentences.
Now,

Find a guy, who calls you beautiful instead of hot. (errr..checked!)

Who calls you back when you hang up on him. (sometimes?)

Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. (checked!)

Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead. (checked!!checked!!love it when he does that)

Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats. (checked)

Who holds your hand in front of his friends. (checked)

Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you. (Checked!!!!!!!!!)

Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "...that's her." (hmm..checked?!)

wahh.there's improvements!!
good hor.
okay tired of saying checked!
i want my CHEQUE NOW!!!

i feel so poor already.
*sob sob*

I WANT SMALLER BREASTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
CIBS

zenzitive

2007-02-28T08:24:00.000-08:00

There's no other one for me. fin .

LIBRARY

2007-02-26T23:56:00.000-08:00

Sometimes, i really wonder if I AM REAL.

::OKAY,I DIDNT FORCE HIM TO WRITE "A LOVE F" ON HIS FOOT.HE WROTE IT HIMSELF.AND OF COURSE I WROTE THE "I LOVE U".BECAUSE I DO.::

2007-02-26T23:48:00.000-08:00

ok.pay's in.so many debts to settle.
papillio flops arrived.
told u we cancelled.
but lulu's friend ordered for us unexpectedly.
so we have to pay.
half-reluctantly cos its a size bigger.
anypoots its cheaper.
way cheaper lor.
i dont care i still want that plain birkenstock one.
bluek!

I DONT WANT TO CELEBRATE SHARIFAH NADIAH'S BIRTHDAY.*bounce..bounce..bounce*
WHO IS SHE? SHE'S NOT MY FRIEND.*laugh and grunts*
SO NADIAH!!!IF U'RE READING THIS,WE AINT CELEBRATING YA B'DAE YO!!
*cover mouth and giggles*

shhhhh.=)

2007-02-26T23:40:00.000-08:00

It was the first chapter.And it's one of those moments that you cant concentrate on ANYTHING.I flipped open the book and kept reading the first line.

"He needed a woman. Bad."

Fuck .
If he's so good he could get anyone he desires.Why the hell is she THERE anyway.Maybe she's just a toy.For fuck's sake.A bloody toy.Without individual opinions and expressions.Or maybe her feelings are unimportant to him.Never.

Gosh . Linda Howard's has always been my ultimate look-up-to book.But i cant help being a bitch just because i'm uneast with certain issues of my life.

Anyway, i'll stop manupulating my angst and turn them into a bloody story.

Bye .

You've been PMS-ed .

naq

2007-02-23T17:56:00.000-08:00

::nak!::

::nak!!::

::nak!!!::

am shagged.
dragged myself from work.
(i think i saw one primary school on fire,i think[the one opp mjc])
ate breakfast.
then online.
wake everybody up.
even boifey.
haha.evil kedivel.
i love my LITTLE DEVIL.*winx*
bubbye c u later.
and tmrw.
we lepak the whole day at library k
muax.

time:10:09am
song:you are the sunshine of my life-stevie wonder =)

oh nadiah

2007-02-23T00:52:00.000-08:00

"Secondly, i miss my darling phuzz.
I dunno y, but wenever i read her blog entry, i kinda have flashbacks on THOSE things we did.
Hehhehehehe..I really missed u lor."

OKAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
GONNNA START DOING HER PREZZIES SOON!!!
hmm..wonder what THOSE moments are.
haha.
shhhh!

tmrw watch sayang play soccer.
am gonna laugh at u if u let in the ball!!
hahah.
okay.kidding la b.
then bring him back home and watch the real match.
chet!
i never bring home guys before okay.
he's the first and only.nuff said.
i hope mama masak his fav.

so lazy to go werk.
first day of period.
horny already.
wonder where to get pushpop.
mane budak2 tu beli ehk.?
ade jual lagi ke?
oh if i act bitchy,pardon me.
pms to be blame.

sun goin library.
help sayng do his last 3 weeks project.
ape kene tu budak.
the project its like blogging.
so fuggin easy.
just blog lor.
shld have given me ur book.
bcos everyday u tell me wad u do/did/done.
so lets finish up the unfinish.

oh,how i wish i can meet u everysingleday.
bluek!

5:04pm
song:i wanna love you-akon(reminds me of nadiah somehow,haha)

ghdydgy

2007-02-22T07:43:00.000-08:00

am having breakfast at 11:40pm.
yes u read it right, PM!
post cereal.yumm yumm.
dont tell bf.
shhh.

anyway.
currently i need something long n strong.
wah that rhymes.
haha.
dont think dirty la.
haha.

speaking about long.
minutes ago.
i went to the toilet.
and something long n not so strong came out from ma ass yall.
haha.
no,not the shape of the feaces la.
there's this like fibre thingy going on down there.
haha.
wonder what.
hah.

gosh! this entry is far way too eeky.
haha
sorry.
kalau sape yg tgh cekik bace entry ni.
haha.
if u vomit,welcome to the club.
and thanks for the contribution.

zentossah

2007-02-21T07:04:00.000-08:00

im burnt.all red.baked.
my back my neck urm not my erm kay.
my teteks too.
damn it.
went "sun-tanning with love" at sentosa tanjong beach.
the funny part was. we both spread sunBLOCK.
doink!
we first buy carls j. n lj at vivo n head to sentosa.
took the monorail for the first time.
haha.
sayang looked like he's going gunung ledang with the huge backpack that shadowed above his head.
and gosh it fucking heavy.
he sayang me too much.
guess wad i carried for the two days outing?
a small pouch size of my hand.
like cibai lor.
he said "kalau boleh i tknk u bawak ape2"
ish.
i felt guilty.
but nvm.
love is..urm..weird?
i love u baby.

i cant wait for pay.
actually i planned to ride the luge n skyride months ago.
seriously.MONTHS i tell u.
still tak jadik.
cos after swimming and redam-ming we tertido sampai kul 6+.
haha.
okay wadeva.

i think i need a new job.
at the same time too lazy to find.
ppl's been pestering me to find a better one.
sigh.

lulu n i chose the papillio patterns already.
at wheelock.
oh,fam n me ate resto surabaya at lucky p.
then lulu ajak me to window shop.
mama ayah n faleq went home.
so gonna get the flip flops soon.
n the pazzion ones too.
aiya.
so many things to buy ,so little time and money.

oh,something crossed my mind while window shopping just now.
thought of making nad n bad a birthday card.
that if as if they'll appreciate it.
my efforts that is.
sigh some more.

cek mek molek

2007-02-18T00:45:00.000-08:00

i dont wanna know what happened or what u did.
as much as i want to know so badly,dont tell me.

anyway.
family besides mum.
ders a picnic thingy.
kt pasirirs park.
boifey came yest.
so did ibrahim hilmi n fadhil.
wirna wirni and lulu.
taufik anf faleq and danial.
everyone was der except my 2nd aunt n nenek.
so it was okay.
boifey was der too.
of course ah okay.
wahlao.
play sum soccer.
den
i remembered that geli nk mandi kt toilet ctu.
so stop.
boifey continue playing with sum guys and i had to interrupt him to buy ice.
we were out of ice.
and ayah throw him the car key.
cool huh.
so imagine this,
u just learn how to walk,
and ppl are already asking u to run.
so it was the first time for boifey to work on a auto car n a size of an elephant.
haha/
okay exagerrating.
i hop on beside him.
i love to look at his every moves,expressions.
they are priceless.
so we both ride.
slowly.
haha.
best la.
den i disturb him.
"wah da bole bawak krete.jom khawin.jom bli rumah plak."
hahah
wth.
all he hadto do was
SMILE.
yes,that smile.
i love that smile.
*melts*

niway.i nak tues to hppn.
cant wait.

my hp da gone case.
im gonna buy n93i.
anyone nk blanjekan 1k for me?
better then boifey.
he lost his n80.
dang!
sorry to rub it in.
mesti ade rahmat disebaliknye
haha.
u were going to friday prayers eh.
doing a good deed.
that scoundrel will get it somehow.
dun worry.
i still love u.(haha.tkde kene mengene)

oh, i might create an lj accnt.
blogger sialbial.
shld hv known.
*shows middle finger*

walcott

2007-02-14T08:08:00.000-08:00

told you blogger mcm c-al.
so i da lupe ape yg i nak update.

lotsa things happened.
so not necessary to share.
not important to yall anyway.

shopping even when im broke-checked!
went out with home n mira-checked!
compliment compliment more compliment!!-checked!(can u believe tis time its the auntie aka movie tix seller.wahlaneyyy.)
eat like fugg-checked!(i vomit out,back again)
love baby-checked!

dont celebrate or celebrate
we decided not to celebrate but end up the latter.
haha.
was super fun
i swear that's the only date i laugh until tak boleh tahan.
gosh.
he's so pharkin special lah.
i love you.
those words are said too many times.
but u know i know.
we really meant it everytime we say it.
n we picnic by the beach.
fun.
giler babi siol.
laughter is the best medicine,no?
serious lah.
yes.
haha
he made me laugh cos he found my weakspot.
hhAAHAH.
geli okay.really ticklish okAy.
i bought him n cake n lit mini candle n the stupid me tk pk yg ade angin sepoi2 kt situ.
wahlaney.
so,
yea.
i knew.u were hungry dats y i bought u some food.
anyways otw back he wanted to piggy back me lor.
so he did.
i was waiting for him to break into two.
but didnt.
i have a strong knight in shining armor kay.
boo!
den i try to piggy him but im too short.
n i swear i can carry him ah.
bluek!

seriously,it was the best day,date,moment with the super sweet person ever.can?
[ilove14thfebruary2007]

~~Theo~~ ~~Theo~~ Adli-checked!!!

shahril ishak

2007-02-09T06:29:00.000-08:00

blogger mcm c-al.
haha.

ok.been a long time since the last update.
and,i've decided not to blog bout the ex thingy.
just not worth it.
never.

CASE CLOSED: THE EX FILES!

"Loving and being loved is a privilege, not a right"

i was watching "Classroom of Blogging" on channel news asia lately.
And they talked about freedom of speech and social responsibilities.
about one can be sued if u write bout ur teacher(reveal the name) and how u dislike them and why n all la.
cool shit.
From my point of view,one should have their own space for their daily rants.Their own right(s) as well as creativity to type about whatever is on their mind.
period!

on thursday.
i bullied my bubblegumdrop(actually it sounded better for u,am still ur munchkin)and asked him to buy thosai for breakfast,fetch me and we head to pasir ris beach.ate.crap.~~motek~~(eeew.wad a word!)fugg.i miss him now.cibs.

and also.
yest ade cicak kecik.
and i didnt sleep in my bed(another cibs incident!).
i slept in faleq's room.
wonder how that boy sleeps in his bed.
so tk sedap n keras!!

today.
mama n me clean up my closet.
and manage to throw(donate two big bags of clothing.
n i managed to clear my cosmetics stuff too.
phew!
all i need now is to buy a very big make-up bag to store the living ones.

muahaha.
i cant wait for tmrw:)

munchkin

2007-02-05T01:32:00.000-08:00

bonjour'
=)

Enough of flying nasi lemak and flying bottles or even "petpet petpetpet petpetpetpet BUTO!!".Singapore emerged Champ.wooohoo!hahah.tak pernah aku patriotic sebegini.muahaha.

I have money left only enough for my daily allowance.Damn.So much on spending on cosmetics.Mama even said"kau pegi hancurkan mekap kau,serbuk die campur ngn air pastu minum,boleh kurus."wth.

i have decided to babble bout the Ex files in future entries.just too lazy.i miss my sugarpiehoneybum.so,so much!i hate this feeling.like i cant grab hold of something.urgh!and it's getting bad.

On a lighter note,my barbie ken passed his TP.Yay!A call for celebration.*smiles wickedly*muahaha.i love him more.no,not because he has a driving license.but because i just love him more.err..nvm.

::kak dila gave me this picture.i edit it.haha.muker steam siak.tapi tetap hot.*smiles*

Today is the 5th of February.
Happy Anniversary Baby.
I love you more and more.
And i want to be your munchkin for the rest of my life.Can?
Im very sure u know that.
I cant wait to...nah,let's not spoil it shall we.

c ya soon:)

miss bigg

2007-02-03T21:51:00.000-08:00

i was reading my workmate's Her World and there's this topic on "So what if im Miss Big?"

Dengan qushuknye,aku bace.
best nyahh!

Which brings me to share a lil bit of me to yall.
aha.

Hello you!
Im a size 16 girl living in a size 8 world. Being fat judged from their(evil people) first impression,we(as in all the CUTE people kay)are always immediately stereotyped!
We're accused of being lazy,ugly and even stupid.what the ... .from my personal experience,..

Yesterday while at work a middle age male passenger(with the wife besides him) suddenly questioned me(and raised his voice suddenly):"Why you gain so much weight??!"

me:(blink..blink)*smiles* dlm hati[oh no,not another one.siallah,ni macam nak carik pasal tibe2 asal.prangai !!]

him:*nugde the wife*"right?right? *look back at me*"if u lose..(touch his face:chin n make the shape of a 'v')(like as if my roundess will go away)err..a bit weight right,then i think u'll have many suitors."*nugde the wife again*[she's filling up a form btw,if im her,da kene terajang siak]:right ? right?.."

me:"haha.i get that a lot of times.a lot of other ppl also said the same thing.*smiles*

and he repeat the same thing. about how many suitors i wil have if im slimmer n shit.

at last i said proudly(and hoping he will stop the lame topic):" heee..but i have a boyfriend already,(and i dont need anymore suitors or whatever)so yeah.."

him(insisting that its not over yet):"but seriously,u're very pretty already n if u slim down...bla3..."

me(cut in):Sign over here sir(points),and here's ur money. thank you.BYE"

HIM:"oh i didnt get extra money by saying all dat?"

me:ha ha.NO.bye.thank you."(so much with good customers' service!)

sigh.what an ass.

Anyway yea..i also have people telling me if i were skinny i wouldnt be as pretty. you see,i dont really understand what they want from me. and i try my very best not to get affected by their compliment cum jugdement cum personal remarks.

And i learnt(as a matter of fact) that we CANNOT please ~~everyone~~ every single person. so that's why i stop trying to be skinny and gave a halt to my diet plans.it's just aint working yaw. I may be plump but i ~~think~~(must be confident!) am in good health; there are many thin people who are sick too.

And definitely,there's a lot more to life than fitting into tiny tees and worrying if the next guy i meet will leave me for a girl several pounds lighter.(in this case;my boyfriend. gosh!,for goodness sake im already thankful for what i've got! it's a one in a million blessing.)

There's also a column phrased "Men who love large". I personally thought that was cool.Girls,men dont care what size our rear end measures; they didnt even know! so stop manipulating urself or worrying about how big(u think!) they are. seriously.period.i have man who loves me.Still loving me.And boy!,am i large! so? Is that a problem? i dont see any. Not even a miniscule one.kay.

My boyfriend recently shared his point of view during lunchcumearlydinner. About me that is.He said "beauty is in the eye(s) of the beholder.and he even said that im perfect to him.and from his eyes there's no flaws.(chey!pandai2 je aku.ok ah he said something like dat.lupe ah.98% correct kay.kan b?)hehe.so get the point?doesnt mean when there's a huge lump of esters of glycerol and fatty acids all over ur body,u cannot be loved.or loved in that sense.

Today,we see women everywhere with post-it pasted on their botox-ed forehead: "Manufactured and reshaped into perfection"-by Dr so-and-so. puit! Forget bout it! Face the fact will you? WE come in different shapes and sizes. It wouldn't be nice if everyone look the same. right? raise ur flabby arms if u agree.haha.

ok enuff said.i wanna wash up and go for dinner with my loved ones.
we're gonna stuff ourselves with Sofra kebabs n pudding because we love our body.
hahah.
till we meet again.
toodles.

upcoming topic: The Ex files!

rudy youngblood

2007-02-01T09:15:00.000-08:00

okay.
you can either phuck yourself or go and die if you think he's not hott(yes with the double t!)

boifey and i watched dvd last week.
and we watched apacalypto.
coolness.
glued to the teevee,engrossed with all the actions.
and i cant deny that Mr Rudy Youngblood is one hotsex fella.
but i have to say that he sizzles only when he's all tribal n dirrty nmessy hair with cuts n bruises kinda look.
oh plus his phucking hotnakmampos ass.
period.
below is a photo of him when he's normal.

tak hot sangat.haha.masih suke yg atas skali tu.=P

anyways.
on the last day of january,a day well-spent and also victory for Singapore.
started out as per normal.
my darling dear fetched me.
went bugis.
i decided to treat him.(planned like so long already)
we ate swensen.
starter,main course and of course(nie giler kalau takde)..desert.
=)
bf was looking at me.
at how i eat n stuff.
eee.irritating.
i used to be uncomfortable before but somehow it fades.
meaning that i get comfy with him.
yes,everything thing yg memalukan.da lali.
haha.
and he shot me a few of 'those' looks..
i cant explain.
i think i know what but i cant really rely on my instinct.
so i ignored.
then our stomach were already full when we finished our main meal.
and forced our way through desert.
haha.
mango madness for him and chocolate malt with marshmellow toppings for me.
i learn new things everytime im with him.
best kan.
he told me that he dont really eat cherries(poor thing =0)
so he went on and told me bout theory,myth ape kejadah ah..
that when a person pop cherry into his/her mouth and manage to tie a knot with his/her tongue(without the help of anything else esp fingers),turn out to be a good kisser.something like that.ha ha.
so that's like my first time hearing that story.
and so,

this was my FIRST attempt too!! am i cool or what?!.hahah(prasan jubs)
but serious siak.
first time try lah tu.
pandai eh aku.
actually before i pop the cherry he said that i am indeed a good kisser*blush*
but knowing me,so degil nauzubillah,i decided to try lor.
and yay,a knot was what we got!

we then jalan cari angin.
haaaa.
bored and bloated.
window shopping for awhile and met his friends.
another couple.

and off we went to the stadium.
jam like phuck.
crowded like phuck.
people like phuck.
phuck phuck phuck.
all like phuck ah.
benci.
haha tapi best.
macam semut.
a colony of ants.
really.
so ramai mcm satu singapore pegi stadium siak.
haha.
plus thailand nye org sumore.
wahlaowey.
puit!
haha.
cari gate da satu hal.
den carik tempat pun tkble decide.
i dont really care.
janji can rest my big ass da cukup + sayang by my side.
that's all i asked for.
heee.
i was literally sleepy mind you.
o i didnt join the fun.
i could.
trust me.
only some people know my camp-cheer-pekikmcmpompangiler mood.kan girls?
but not that day.
i learn something new again.
i saw the other side of bf.
the rowdy-irritating-bising-mintakkenesmacknye prangai.
haha.
funny as hell.
but still love him yaw.
and then before half time something happened.
somebody came to join in the few rows in front of ours.
it turned out to be:MY SO-NOT-FAVOURITE PERSON IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD.
actually my second un-favourite person sia.
him=hatred.phobia.fear.asshole.jerk.dotdotdot...
if killing is illegal,he'll be the 2nd to go.
watch out ah babimutherfucker.hahaahaha.*evil laughter*
i had to hide beside my knight in shining armour to maintain the stupid feeling.
of all ppl asal si sial tu siak.
ahahahahaaha
cibai ah.
then i tried.to focus.on the match.
=)
and darling dear kept holding my hand.
and everything else falls back into place.
like his touch assured me that everything is gonna be okay.
awwww.

after the match ended,we bid our goodbye.
to kak dilla,her bf,her bf's lil sis(farazean),and her bf.
then arip harsh bf and me chill at esplanade.
something hppd again.
im so phucking clumsy that i fell down the stairs again.
kaninabey betol.haha.
sorry cant help it.
org lain yg patut rush org lain yg jatuh.
wth.
haha.
that's how clumsy i can get k.
besides my major blurness.
pttfff!!

than after that we et again.
den tk abis.
den(brape byk den pun aku tk tau)okay part ni malas nak cite.
privacy babe.lol.

reached home almost 4am.
kwang3.
haha.
lulu was still up,on the fone.
i think she hooked up on some bangla that everynight the guy use public phone prolly waste money on phonecards and whispers sweet nothing to her and perhaps persuade her to elope with him someday.
haha.
okay.sorry.just some make-up stories.
god knows.*roll eyes*
hahaha.
talking about lulu,i've got to say this,she paying for my online papillio.
i love my sister...for now.
hahaha.
back to the story.
ya i saw my bed, wash up and off to lala land.
dreaming bout my love.(who else kan?)

erm..somebody stop me from shopping puhlease.
im going crazy.
i spent all my money on cosmetics.
gila already.
recently,
i bought 3 mac's eyeshadows and a blusher.
plus loreal's mascara and lancome too.
see,told u.
gila already.
but i love them okay!

currently at werk.
was calld back.
hmmphhf!
but off tmrw.
cant wait for sunday.
family outing to Sofra.
lulu and me=payday treat.
;)
bf's gonna be busy.
so i'll try to make myself busy.
so that i wont whine and merengek that i miss him la,i want dis la,dat la. and trouble him.
so let's gey busy!
bye for now.

oh baby,

btw that's my Breaded Chicken Meuniere.haha.
toodles.

most of life

2007-01-30T11:30:00.000-08:00

Do you feel like a man when you push her around?

++Reservist++ says:
i cant never b tat guy handsome,young and caring,I AM NOT THE PERFECT BF.seek a new 1...
pronto! says:
erm hello?
++Reservist++ says:
cos i don care!!!
pronto! says:
we're talking bout helmets
pronto! says:
what's wrong with you?
pronto! says:
giler kape
pronto! says:
*lost*
pronto! says:
oh now you don't care bout me huh

then he offline.
eee.not fair seh.
topic lari betol.
ape je.
takde kene mengene.
alih2 je cakap gitu kat org.
tsk.
disturbing seh.
this has got to stop.

i mean, org lelaki ade PMS jugak ke?
sigh.

now i cannot do my work.
and for your info im binge-ing like phuck.
i want to become more fat and ugly so my boifey wont say that i'll leave him and go for someone new or he thinks i think that whichever guy is hot.
urgh!
it didnt even crossed my mind seh.
i dont want a new boyfriend or whatever shit.
i want you.
dont you get it?
phuck.
seems like every single thing i do is wrong.
everything i say will always hurt you and we always quarrel in the end.
cibai lor.
i'm always blamed for things that you cant do.
not fair!

makcik..,oh cik siti arifah..
anak makcik tak betol eh?

tapi saye masih sayangkan die tau

I wont talk
I wont breathe
I wont move till you finally see
That you belong with me

You might think I dont look
But deep inside
In the corner of my mind
Im attached to you
Im weak
Its true
Cuz im afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cuz my heart keeps falling faster

I've waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try
Anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

pronto

2007-01-28T06:32:00.000-08:00

song:because you loved me-celine dion

hello you!=)
ashrae cup was ordinary.
the extra-ordi part was i got to meet people i missed excluding ton and nina and khalid(surprisingly)*sob sob*
sorry nasrul darling if i didnt help much.
it was raining(hujan panas!).
and i hate rain.
haha-excuse baik eh.
anyway ya.
best la dapat jumpe sume org alim was there too. n wak!
yay!
aisha,nas's gf came down too.
she was sweet.
it was my first time seeing her-live.
i wish i cld talk to her more if i see her again.
haha.
im so mrepek.
den the sad thing was,fauzi's arm was dislocated.
kesian die eh.
felt sorry for him.
he acted like nothing hppd.
i rememberd him said "i think im ok ah"
hahah.
funny sia dat guy.
how can u think?!
but the "medic" pandai2 gi masuk kan tulang die balik.
hahaha. alim ye2 orr je.

den i didnt wait for the last match to fin.
father fetched me.
and drop me n mama at tamp int.
met lulu and we gurls go shopping and ate our dinner at tong seng.
i was practically making prangai cos of my lack of sleep.
it tink i looked like a walking zombie.
so manage to bought colourful bangles and perfume fer me n boifey.
ok ah bedek.
i bought two perfumes.
haha.
ralph lauren n adidas fruity rhythm.
muahaahha.

den i didnt manage to but tops.
dah penat nak mampos.

can u imagine not sleeping fer almost 30 hours.
gila kamu!!!!

today(sunday)
boifey woke me up at ard noon.
he came over straight away after he "booked" out.
haha. best kan?
so we ate.
watch tv.
den he played soccer w faleq.
drink bubble tea.
chocies.
he mandi=)
haha.
watch dvd
ate dinner(mum's cooking)
and went back ard 9 plus.
i wish i cld keep him here in my home.
that wld be superbly nice.
but.
there's always a but.
cibai lor.
better see doctor tmrw bout ur eyes.
its getting worse seh b.
tsk.
if u cant meet me tmrw.
wed also can kay.
i still want to treat u.
okay?
okay?
okay?

damn i still have not pay my bills.
urgh!

soop

2007-01-26T10:03:00.000-08:00

okay.
im like super paranoid.
relax lah.
im having my period.
so there's a high possibility fer (traces of) pms reacting.

anyway,i cant wait for monday!!
im gonna treat boifey swensens.
say yaaaay!!

oh,my pay's in.
its like a few days early.
weird.
and we usually gt it by 29th.
so how bout feb then?

hmmm..
thinking or ordering ice cream cake for mum.
lulu how?

things to pay/buy:
-hp bill
-pills
-transfer money for online stuff.
-shoppin(hhaha!)
-save(what a joke!!)

i can't wait to meet u.
this time i'll behave kay.
promise.
*pout and holds up palm*
ceee ya!

summer love

2007-01-25T06:25:00.000-08:00

;;maton look!!aku tk gi practical da ble bawak motor.muahahaha.;;

and so.
i ate 3 tablets of extra panadol.
at one go.
best.

and in front of me.
i saw this solemn face.
well,at least he's trying to be.
i turned on a high mode suddenly.
he made me high.
not the pills.

he look so luxuriously fine.
i just can't believe he's mine.
nuff said.

look,bout few days back, i didnt know that ur parents are persistent enough to seperate the things they're giving me and expect me to come.(USUALLY, after a few days,THEN they WILL give to the people that the want to give). that's the environment that i was brought up in.well,i can go on and on bout how i was brought out,what my parents teach me,how and what i'll become.but i will not go there,YET.

nevertheless,
im truly touched by their benevolent act.

my family appreciate it too. especilally my MUM.(i have a mum too ok.and of course i love her.and she's also my everything.[syurga di bawah telapak kaki ibu okay,im not dumb,i pernah blaja kelas ugama.masih ade pegangan unsur agama lagi.cume kurang jelas visi secare praktik je.tapi tk ikut ajar bermakne bukan lupe hukumnye sume.mungkin bukan masenye lagi tapi insyallah satu hari siape yg tau. ada faham.?] and of course she chooses who i will marry,when i'll marry etc etc.which mother wants their child to have an unfavourable outcome?so same goes to mine.and everyone else's.)
setuju?

and i know u missed her.
to a very great extent.
if i were in your shoes,i'll feel the same too.
so i really understand.

i said i was shy.
memang.
perempuan kan?
takkan nak jadi tak tau malu:
"hi cik! baru balik eh! amacam, best?"
kalau kate gitu kan dah kire tak tau malu nak mampos,tak mampos2 pastu menyusahkan org terutame org yg disayangi.
this question keeps going through my mind:
""who am i?""
i have my MOTHER to back me up on this one.
serious.
i know im your gf.
and i love u.
i know u love me too.so much kan?
still,..
alah b..i penat ah nak cakap pasal ni.
kalau cakap pasal ni mesti gadoh nye.
nanti u ckp "nak malu buat pe?" "tu kan my mum,kite kene saling kenali keluarga masing2" "etc........................"
betol tak?
u nak tau my mum cakap ape?
nanti u dtg uma i, u dgr kay ape die ckp.
i tknk ckp,sebab ape yg die nak lafazkan tu dari mulut die sediri.
so u faham macam mane die nak anak2 prompan die bertindak.mcm mane die didik anak die k.(eventho i tk ikut sume ape die kate[and i tau dosa besar].kay?)

btw,we're still together.
nothing change.
only our love.
getting stronger.
stronger than yesterday.
every new day ahead.

4-5 years.
i am willing to wait.
are you?????

---intermission---
boifey once said that he thinks i think that he's filthy and everything bout him is dirty.
know what i think of that?
i think it's all bullshit kay.
jgn mrepek mcm cibai la.
kalau u kotor buat ape i kwn dgn u.
kan?

hati u bersih seh.
dah check kay.
sumpah.
holy.
suci.
=)
perfect fit.

dahlah u jgn pk bukan2 kay.
i tk suke.
u mane percaye ape i ckp.
padahal u tk perasan kdg2 ape i cakap tu really came frm my heart.
u mane tau.
:(

I LOVE YOU.
(simple words,with remarkable value!)

Till the day my life is through
This I promise you baby

****************************************************

anyways, sharifah nadiah..
harge due celak tu brape ehk?
tell me pls.

and halimaton shahidah, lets shop for stickers.
i want my helmet to be hot pink!!

eh nur amalina, b'dae sape dulu ah?
nak blikan ape seh?
cepat kite decide same2 kay.

**********************************************************
let's talk about me.
its my blog fugg.
my problem ah.
haha.

i just got my confirmation letter.
so there's a little payraise.
ok ah.
syukur alhamdulilah.

and i thought of resuming back to studies.
i want a diploma still.
ok ah, i admit i have a dream.
tak salah kan ade mimpi?cita2?
ade diploma nanti kerje boleh dapat gaji besar.

sebab years ahead when i settle down, my husband ask(ed) me to assist him in financial matters sebab kite ade family planning sebab nak bli kerete,nak ade rumah mewah,hidup sederhana,nak tinngal overseas,nak ade anak,nak ni nak tu---okay part ni da mcm cibai ah!aku berangan tak abis2!!!!!

u can ignore that part.
hahah.
crapshit.for now je.

dah.
told u im mentally unwell.
sick in the head.
and right now,im not endowed with mental faculties.

till then...
slamat malam.
"mimpi yang indah sayang,aku cintai mu."
(remember that? i was fucking surprised when u text me that. like u never say it before.i ~~was~~ am still gay-spirited.........)

pyar

2007-01-24T04:12:00.000-08:00

song:this i promise you-nsync

Im having breakdown(s).For the umpteen times.
EMOTIONALLY UNBALANCED

Sir Eragon-e and a passerby in his life.:(

cummed

2007-01-22T07:14:00.000-08:00

hello you.!

sorry.
was for being M.I.A.
on friday i was too tired.
i slept like a log.
sorry mama, nina and especially nad,for bailing out on u people.

and so on sat i woke up early.
i was too anxious to meet bf.
i woke up at six and watched cartoons/anime!
ahahah.
pagi2 da bukak tv kuat2.
nak tunngu sampai kul 12 nye pasal.
den siap.
curled up my hair.
my new sweater and ready to go.
when i reached under his block,he was still in the taxi sumwhere in eunos area.
and so wait some more.
my life is about waiting.
i will wait for bf no matter how late he is.
because it's worth it kay.

wait for him to wash up,choose his shirt(gosh that boy need a new wadrobe!)
sorry baby.but its not tat bad la hor..
anyway we went to tamp first.
fuct it rained.
so mcm spoil plan ah.
buy my stuff,
ate fish n co.
we ordered seafood platter for 2 n my prawn fettucini.
so tak boleh habis.
and i know he's pissed of.
like fer sure sebab.
at first he insist on just plain fish n chips.
den i so gatal very the miang n mentel ati2 nk order platter fer 2.
so yah. sorry again.
for wasting money on me.
den rain stopped.
we searched fer his phone and atlast he bought one
N80 u fucktard.
i hate him for the flash and other cool things the phone can offer.
fuct.
hahaha.
nvm im gonna be a bitch and find a phone better then then kay.
lu tunngu kay.
hahahaha.

den we bought one tub of ben and jerry's ahaha.(i have a habit of eating a tub of that.of course share with him la).
Chocolate fudge browne it was.
not much choice.
i ate cherry garcia before.
so im gonna cross out one by one of the flavours from ma list kay.
ahaha.
nah.
he "loves" buying me tub after tub.
ryt tub tub?
ahaha
sorry.

den after that he drop me at the "pit"/"chalet" or wadeva it is called.
IT was a blast!!!
best siak.
we watched dvd,the match,bla bla...
and catched up on things that we missed.
ahaha.
kan kan?
cakap "ah ah" lah...
=)

woke up in the morning meet boifey agn.
we ate mcdonald's breakfast.
ahahaha.
pastu gi amik glove frm his friend at kg arang.
and i saw my dream hse.
THE TWIN-COLOURED CONDO.
ahaha.
den off to bras basah complex.
but kedai blom bukak so wait agn den we ate cheng teng n ice jelly.
ahahah.
he was well...OBSESSED WITH HIS NEW PHONE.
pffftt!!!!
oh and the glove.
his expression was like..
hmmm mcm budak kecik baru dapat mainan baru gitu.
jakon n cute nak mampos ah.
and we took lotsa pics.
silly ones.
ahaha.den after artfriend da bukak
got what i wanted,we went to pasar geylang.
and we beli nasi kat hannan's(father's) shop.
he was there okay.
so imagine how i feel okay.
mcm cibai okay.
so i acted like i tk kenal lah.
because i hv boifey beside.
and because i love boifey.
so the feeling's empty.no more there.actually da lame tkde.
mcm tk suke adelah.
sebab persaan bodoh tibe2 muncul.
mcm tk percaye ade small crush kat budak2.
mude plak tu.
eewwww.
yeah to think of it. jijik kay!!
da so after dat boifey ajak gi uma mami die kay bedok.
amik lauk.
hafta wait fer a while
at first i was so paiseh nak mampos.
but lame kelamaan. da okay.
serious.
hahaha.
den he sent me home.
like i said everything was superb.
the feeling un-describable.

guilt.guilt.guilt.
but it was worth it.
almost 24hrs.-yay!
=)

la lala lala...

sometimes i feel like a dumblonde.
so stupid and err... stupid!

sbnfgb

2007-01-17T12:33:00.000-08:00

hah! im like blogging for the second time.
what a noob!
im bored la.
at work kay.
is the reason good enuff>?
so i saw C.ronaldo face terpampang holding a cup for Barclays Player Of The Month. piutt!
ahah
sorry b,i used to have a crush on him but not anymore.
if not sape nak hv a crush on u kan?
ahahah.
and so i've been planning what to do for valentine's day.
hahah sooo kiasu.
padahal lame lagi.
what to do what to do...
hmm...
of course it must be something special n all..
i wonder if he even react.
sigh..
i guess i'll hafta start saving..
oh well....

~~i still haf lotsa things to buy~~ ...

okay.

2007-01-17T09:34:00.000-08:00

okay.
after a few days of hiding in the dark,crying like a baby before i go to sleep,
i need to let it out.
sorry for being a coward.
i just missed/misses/miss him too much.
no point crying every now and then.
i tried telling him but to no avail,he's still there.
and he misses me(like fuck,like crazy dot dot dot[dats wad he said over the fone]) too!
so will meet him on sat and sun.
intentionally,i took a day off on sunday just for him.
so yes. im dat sweet.
haha.
no lah.
so hopefully on sat one of the bitches wont spoil my plan and let me enjoy my 'b' shift.

cant wait!!
oh chicklets cant wait too!!!
haha.

ok lets drop the subject of missing the bf,shall we?

so in a few hours father will fetch me from work and mother n lulu will join us for breakfast.
thosai masala yay!
ngidam kay.

err...i wonder if i should start schooling again?

hmm...this friday nampaknye tk jadi la plan kite eh sharifah nadiah?
peace-

campsux

2007-01-14T05:35:00.000-08:00

that was on ..err..friday!
yes now that i remember..
friday jumpe org2 yg kat dlm gambar tu lah eh.
den next fri nak jumpe lagi.
wanna buy stuffs to make necklaces.
and help naddie with her project.
so yah, friday it is then.

im gonna miss bf.
he came just now fer awhile just to see me.
sweet aye?
ahaha.
prasan sak aku.
so we say our goodbyes n kisses.
and off he ride..
he'll be in camp for one week until i get to see him.
urgh!
boring nyer!!!
mati uh gini.
wahlaowey!!

fhharr

2007-01-10T09:44:00.000-08:00

and so,few days back, when i was still having fever, parents decided to fetch lulu at her work place.
ii didnt put on my make up and dress shabbily and hop on the car to Vivocity.
we spent abot almost 70 bux of chocs n biscuits.-no comment here kay.

then fetched pratibha n mei ning(lulu's besties) to join dinner with us at bendemeer.

and i am still unwell.
nonetheless,the fever,long gone.
still with blocked nose though.
went to papa's doctor.
consultation was a briief one.
she checked my blood pressure i tink(yg bende pump2 kat lengan tu)
and it was like crappy becaus my arms too fat and the velcro keeps coming ogg.
fuct me.
and then she told me to cough wanting to hear how bad it sounds like. i did. iit was normal.but she told me ur cough sounds like a person with asthma.
doc:"do u have (family)history of asthma?
me:"erm nope.err.wait..my father has."
doc:"ok..."
so i asked:"so,u're saying im having asthma huh?"
doc:'i cant really say that its asthma,but its similar."

then she prescribed:
one round container of cream,pills for phlegm,running/blocked nose,cough syrup,fever paracetamol +one day MC yay!!

ahahah.
ok best.i just found out that i have asthma.cool.
so dear bf, kite due2 ade asthma okay? best kan..weeee!

i miss dear bf already,eventhough he's still sleeping i miss him more than never.
he's going for a few weeks of reservist starting from later morning.govt jahat!aahah
nvm.i'm strong enough fer all this shit.tho,i'll act like i cant take it in a few days time.remember,i love u n only u.so dont paranois kay?i wont flirt or go out with other guys.
i wont gatal2 with ppl on msn or wad u call it my "peminat".i wont i wont i wont.u nak list tak?ke surat perjanjian ke,cert ke suro i sumpah yg i tk buat tu sume?kalau nak boleh.da siap sign kat bawah skali ;)

::sleeping in ur arms felt like heaven::

bowl

2007-01-08T00:54:00.000-08:00

faleq,lulu,me,bf,putra,kak dilla n irfan went to Marina Square.
Bowlathon it was.
but the gurls went fer a lil bit shopping after late dinner at kfc.
after two games,we hop into the arcade n pool area just behind.

a lil bit after 12 we took taxi home due to morning shift and school.

when we reached home. parents were waiting fer us.
gosh dis is so like primary school compo.
i'll end here.
let the pics do the work.

im having a fever.
and it sucks.period.

KAU tercipta untukku.-

lmfb

2007-01-06T09:12:00.000-08:00

parents outta town.
must take care of siblings.
urgh!!
like dey're too young to take care of themselves.

yest i bought revlon's glossy and clinique's compact+loose powder.
woweee!!
ahaha
aku giler shopping kay.
tapi ape yg da beli tak pakai2.
one day bole open garage sale kan?kan?
ahaha.
then bf and i tk jadik gi mustafa's centre.
sebab sis die claimed that geylang area da ujan lebat.
so went to downtown and eat.
we ordered alot.
whole fuckin lot tu i mkn.
i was again,stuffing n forcing myself.
i really nid to do sumting.
so xenical here i cum.

i wanna travel next.
bf,wl u stop fixing planes and take me onto one?
please baby please?????

oh,the gurls.,
anyone of u free dis friday.pm me kay.
cepat tau!!

i dreamt that i kiss freaky z.
wtf lah kan?
ahaha.
it was a slow gentle soft kiss.
can really feel sia.
anjat gegerl.
pastu tros terbangun.
wth.
jgn jeles kay.

p/s: Dear Lulu, why were you crying?tell me-tell me!!

--i love you yesterday, today, and tommorow.--

shoo

2007-01-04T04:29:00.000-08:00

i had a shoespree yest.
accompanied by love.
idea was to survey for his new phone.
but like he said,"i dont have the power(over you)"
ahaha.
so i bought 3 footwear.
one gold sandals.
one peeptoes velvet flats.
one ballet flats.
yay! a happy girl i was.
yes,WAS.
cos ders so many other things to buy.
and for the past few days,i've come to realised that in my wadrobe,ders a lot of baju tak terpakai seh.
and wen korek2 store tat day,i terjumpe kasut2,slipper2 lame.
ahahah
cibai sak.

and so,i was thinking of having a crazy-dress day out.
like we'll wear something yg kite tk pernah pakai so to attract attention and create curiosity in publics' mind.
be weird.but comfortable.
dats the main purpose yaw.
nak?
nak?
nak?

oh,supposedly,dis idea is for the girls.nad,ton,nin,bad,mah.kay?

i wanna go perfume and make-up spree next.
wwoooooooooohhhooooooooooo!!!!

below:retreat pictures+theburoksideofme.
enjoy!

::stuffed with bbq prawns(they photographers "purposely" place the stix at my nose)+nad(photo freak)::

::ok now they poke-poke my tetek::

::me patriotique w siglap,asl nina lawa ah kat cni?oh and the TWINS!!aha::

::its very hard to c me smile w teeth in pictures::

::muker gangsta+gurls=love::

::basically it's a prawn night fer me kay.::

*i swear bf will ask fer a break when he sees these pics.too fugly kay.can?
blech!!

to the left

2007-01-02T10:37:00.000-08:00

im like so stupid.
"irreplaceable"
is actually a bad song.
ahaha
despite the title.
been con man!!
ok ah cannot blame me what.
i dislike the song at first,that's why i wasn't paying attention to the lyrics until!!

***

You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I could have another you in a minute
Matter fact, he'll be here in a minute (baby)

You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I can have another you by tomorrow
So don't you ever for a second get to thinkin'
You're irreplaceable?

So since I'm not your everything (irreplaceable)
How about I'll be nothing (nothing)? Nothing at all to you (nothing, nothing)
Baby I won't shed a tear for you (I won't shed a tear for you)
I won't lose a wink of sleep (a wink of sleep)
'Cause the truth of the matter is (truth is)
Replacing you is so easy

***

bodohnye aku.
yea.
my baby's irreplaceable.
=)

niways.
surprisingly,Lulu sound me to party.
like at last.
MOS konon.
ahaha.
tapi die takut2.
merepekpepekrepek seh kau.
ahaha.
i guess we're not going huh?
because there's no one to take care of us,erm i mean u.
def.i can take care of myself.(for a moment only.)
and yeah i know u didnt trust me.
so let's drop the idea eventho our fickle minded parents kasi pergi and even offer to pick us up after we're done.
looks like i'm dreaming.again.

oh,not forgetting you,

i hope to meet u soon.
u're missed.like fugg.
im dying baby,im dying.
i need u.
right away.

That last kiss
I'll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes
It harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep
Your memory
You visit me in my sleep
My darling
Who knew
My darling
My darling
Who knew
My darling
I miss you
My darling
Who knew
Who knew

2007-01-01T09:38:00.000-08:00

TRUST

Somebody said to me that,
i didn't trust him.
I'll have to argue on this one.
I can't apologise(not that i won't or refuse to).
because the real word is PARANOID!!

He also said that i didn't APPRRECIATE him.
Hell he was so wrong.

All of those words above don't matter to me at all.
Because there's just one word to define it all.
LOVE.

IM DONE FOR THAT.

and so.
errm.
here are
my resolutions that/wic wont likely turn out to be true.

bende2 yg tak payah nak cakap.sebab they're always there:
-slim down.
-to have someone to love me and i'll promise to love him.and we'll love each other despite the good,bad or evil,till forever.
-be a good person.

niat2 untuk perbaiki diri:
-find a new job
-maybe go back to school and really study.

perbuatan untuk mengeratkan silaturahim:
-get my father side to "baik2" with my father/parents.esp my aunt.
-dont be shy.bf ckp if i talk to his mum on the fone at least,he'll love me more.i'll do anything sia to get him to love me more.
-jgn berat mulut.my mother's side actually fun to chat with.so kalau ade gathering.pls open my mouth.

teman tapi mesra:
-kalau boleh taknak gadoh2,merajuk2 dgn kekawan.
-jumpe dorang slalu.

cinta:
-be there when he needs me.
-love him until the end(in this case,there's no end kay)
-stay true to him(i've been doing that all dis while,so continue doing it)
-dont be rude(mama always scold and warn me not to bully him,fine!)
-keep reassuring him that everything's gonna be alright and make it happen.
-love him
-love him more
-love him much more
-love him much much more

i'm actually a very nice person.
and no,
this is NOT a JOKE.

2007

2007-01-01T00:58:00.000-08:00

and so expectedly,i read everyone's blog and they were telling their stories bout their WONDERFUL FUCKING COUNTDOWN.wah! bestnye-!
COUNTDOWN BAPAK KAU KAY!

so aku tido best.nak mampos.
lagi best dari countdown yg penuh sesak.peluh macam hujan lebat.org bau masam sume.
reverse psychology here baybeh!!
nah-just tryin to make myself feel good.and better of course.
so after looking,reading.analysing my previous entry,tell me about it baby.
tell me i'm bad.
ahahaha.
what do u expect sia?
i was typing it when i was feeling so damn fcuking pissed.
u can ignore it anyway...

i wanna type my resolutions for the new year here,right now but i have to go get ready for work.
'll update bout it after 12 later k.

``daaa.
muax.
oh,dats for you,for You and of course for YOU.!!

2006-12-29T10:09:00.000-08:00

im too tired.so this will be a simple one.

after work-bf fetched.
dinner-packed.ate at bf's hse.
tv-mtv,spiderman...
session-reassure each other that we're still so in love with one another.
decided to blog,but didnt.no mood.
browse.
watch tv again.
mother called.
fetched.
coffeeshop.
home.

i'm feeling very abnormal right now.
weird emotions running all over.

erm sorry for being bad.
for being batu api.
dont feel guilty ok.
it's my fault.

was blowing his babat just now.and he likes to squeeze mine fyi.
so fair k.kite due2 ade babat.comel pe.
dunie kite bulat.
bulat itu menawan.
aha.

[perbualan kanak-kanak riang.=)]
(script below=edited version.reason=may contain uncomfortable language(s) for the young and ones who are not in love,and/or duh! never/refuse to understand what love is.)

::kau tgk muke die.hotsex giler ehk.ahaha.serious.sumpah.::

bf: "nanti u dah kurus confirm u tinggalkan me bulat2"
(dlm hati,i ans:[[abeh kirekan skrg aku gemok,kalau nak tinggalkan kau,aku tinggalkan kau lepeh2 ah?]]tak masuk akal eh?ahah.ni mamat pon..)

::i looooooooooooooooove it when he does that.EVeRY SINGLE TIME::

cont...

bf:
byk org cakap gitu
bf:
terlalu byk...i am jus a stepping stone in ur lyfe, i noe
bf:
one day u turn into BUTTERFLY and fly away......i cant do aneting
bf:
haha haahah
me:
ahahha
me:
BUTTerfly i am.
me:
if im by ur side skrg. i da smack kepale u siak
me:
throw away that thought please. as far as u cld/cn
bf:
its a BOOMERANG....
bf:
it always come back
bf:
have to remember if not it'll hit me

::its hard to see him smile like that.my perfect joy..::

me:
my bf is hot
me:
damn hot
me:
waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay hotter than anyone i noe
me:
and u're hotter in person sia
bf:
hot wit the eye
me:
wad eye?
me:
sek pe ur eyes
me:
steamy
me:
nvr fails to turn me on
bf:
THE EYE of infection
me:
will go off soon
me:
its not forever
me:
MY LOVE FOR YOU is.
bf:
4eva
bf:
i hope.
me:
me too
bf:
ILU
me:
i love u
me:
do u know dat
me:
i hope u do as much
bf:
much
me:
as much as i love u
me:
or maybe more
bf:
dont i love u enuff
me:
yes
me:
aha
me:
but pls dont stop
me:
i love u more and more each day
me:
so do the same pls
me:
wth
me:
we're talking bout love
me:
ahahaha
i smell you. says:
freaks
bf:
i can stop...it getting more n more each day

::yo!see?im happy yaw!reason="to the left,to the left.." =)::

hotsek

2006-12-25T05:34:00.000-08:00

in a few hours bf 's parents will depart to/for mecca.
and before they go out of the house,my hotsex will "bang" (as in the seru from the imam every start of a prayer) for them.
upon the request of his father,
honoured eh dpt bf yg mampu buat ape-ape,segale-galenye.
best eh????????????
im am so bloody lucky u can say.
very very.
will be meeting him later at ard 2am later.
yay.
err...besides the salam2 of his makciks2.
ya.

so besok i wanna bring lulu along for the half price waffles at gelare.
and god knows what we'll do next.
i haven't got my pay.
so yea.
dat explains it.
i think im going to the retreat.
and maybe cook for them spag.
if they bought the cooking stuff.
yay!

cant wait.
cant wait.

hott nak mampos

2006-12-23T00:42:00.000-08:00

went to the city yest.
something happened.twice.
but i wont tell u.
it hurts badly.
and it involved both my legs and his.

and so.
we indulged ourselves with upsize mars balls.
and get stuff to wear.
he bought himself the wrist thingy(leather) and myself a hoody dress.
ahaha.step jepon.
and walk (painfully) our way to lucky p.
for pool and the intention of eating nasi ayam penyet until SOMEONE gave us the wrong info.bitch la u, can?
so after a few rounds of pool(wic i suck at),we hop to the next place and goons around the arcade.and it reminds me of (u-noe-who) sebab ade game truck cibai yg bising tu dgn shooting game fuct.kan girls?
but after a while.i da lupe. sebab nothing,no one,nobody can compare to the person in front of me.love of my life.
we catched a few photos and compete in car,bike racing.and i watched him play his favie,soccer.and then i was on the bike looking at him playing the shooting game. thinking.lotsa things.
we bought bk and proceed to esplanade.surprisingly not many ppl were there.suddenly it turned romantique.no punk kid.no stripes bobbing about,anywhere.no tappereds no tattoos no parangs no step face.good kan?
we shared our personal stories again.and he keeps on touching my chin and says that it fits my face perfectly lah,kene dgn my all other features lah.macam2 la.
but at that point of time,in my heart was, "u're the perfect thing that has happened in my life and spending time with you is the most best thing ever. thank you"
then it started to rain.we ran (painfully again) to find the nearest shelter.after it stopped we balik.
bf's getting hotter day by day.
he's my hot one.my only hot one.
satisfied.innocently satisfied.

ps:dont tell ibu that i know how to take care of you.tell her that i want to take care of you for the rest of my life.hokay?can?

it ~~was~~ will always be just u and me.-

personal cat

2006-12-19T22:18:00.000-08:00

currently listening to: taufik batisah-usah lepaskan(hott!!)

lotsa things been happening lately.
i cant wait for january.
lotsa things gonna happen then too.
fingers cross.

like evryone's been blogging,"it's been raining a lot lately."
i wish i cld stay home and sleep.
and never wake up.
really.
but life has to go on.
and so are the days of our lives..ahahah.
i miss lepaking.
but when i do lepak, i feel so left out.
benci.
no, not u guys.
but myself.
its all my fault aye.
lulu's got a job at Candy Empire at Vivo.
bitch.
i wish she'll turn fat soon.FAT!!
wait,she already is.
heeee.
went to watch eragon at cs.
bought tickets,
den go bazaar but food.
was still raining.
after the show.
i saw tis shooting game kat bazaar tu.
ade lava glitter lamp n electriq hearts shape lamp.
i wanted one of them and asked bf to play the 3bux game.
he almost got it siak.
not bad..a good shooter.
ahaha.

have u ever felt like u're dreaming forever?
like everything's goin the way u want it to?
and there's no "all-good-things-must-come-to-an-end-moments?
and u'll snuggle up in movies.
and when u irritate him or did something adorable without u noticing it urself and he says "eeee geram nyer aku dgn dekni"?
and you'll look up to him and face him quietly,he'll notice and says "mcm kucing..." then pinch ur chin?
u're his personal cat?
quickly grab ur hand when a group of guys walked past?
jealousy with extra cuteness.?
kisses ur forehead whenever wherever he wants to,and u'll feel fuckExtraSpecial?(damn i like dis part so much)!!
and he'll start to call u SAYANG suddenly.tis time he's not ashame of it.?
...

have u?
have u?
have u?

i have.
going through it right now.
and u bet i will.
20,40,60 years later(:

e e e e ewww!

2006-12-15T05:04:00.000-08:00

hadta blog bout tis.
it happended when i was on my way to work.
53 as usual.
i board the bus and chose the last row seat.
snugged myself right in the middle.
between a chinese guy on my right and a malay one on the left.
den a few stops before goin on to the highway,
ders dis big man boarded the bus and place himself right next to me.
mcm tkde tempat lain gitu siak.
padahal tempat kecik.
nk squueze jgk.
semase die naik die da squint2 at the last row tau.
pastu,i move to the right to make space ah.
eh eh!
die ikut skali la sial.
den i move again.
twice sak.
i was listening to perfect 10 as usual on the way to werk.
muttons in the morning!
den i heard someone mumbling on my left ear.
skali si bodoh tadi tu.
den i pull my left earphone,giving him the "ape kau nak?!" expression.
we are so close that i hafta lean back to look at him
eee.siala geli sak.
he looks like pakcik2 pon ade.
maybe ni kes org kesian umur muda tapi muke tue.
ahaha.
seriously,muke die mcm obek didi.
wtf.mate die satu kecik.mcm lebam kene tumbuk.
fuct la. get urself a mirror.
oh back to wat he was mumbling.

die:"ni..melayu ke cine?" (mcm sial eh,kalau aku betol2 cine ko step aku faham ko tanye kape!!)
me:"huh..melayu!"
die:"oh..ingat cine...."
me:geleng kepale (malas nk layan)
die:"mcm cine eh.."
me:"ah..."(puts on my earphone back ..irritated.)
die:.mumbles again..
me(yank out my earphones,giving him the "ape lagi?!)
die(dgn pelahan nye):ble kenal2?
me:huh???????????!!!!!!!!!(i was pratically shouting.serious tk bedek.)
die:"eh..shh..pelan ah sikit.jgn pekik..ble kenal2 tk?"
me: (quietly):eee..(normal volume):err.TAK!(tos toleh kanan,out of the window.)

tros die diam.tapi masih tgk2.
den i wanna a light.
die tknk nk budge la siak.
die move beg je.
tapi perot ngn kaki die maseh in the way.
hoping that i wld brush past him.
eee sial nye anak.
pervertic sial.
mampos tknk.
aku benci org mcm ni.
i noe im being mean.
but please eh.
get a mirror.
or at least sedar la sikit umur tu brape.
u cld be my pap siak.
sial.
bodoh.
ee.geli betol ah.
puki betol.
sorry for the violence and vulgarities.
i just can t stand it.
g-jick!!

btw, sharifah nadiah darling,22nd jadi tk?
sebab kalau tk jadi i'll go out with fam.
sebab my fam da lame tk klua same2.
father was thinking or watching movie and eating dinner b4 dat.
so cnfm k.

pade sape2 gy tk tau.i changed my number.
im busy nowadays.
fuct.
werk3.
cibai betol.
mcm da no time gitu.
i hate it.
keje utk org ,if dapat duit extra tkpe.
nabey!!
bye ah!!
*bingits*

hopelessly devoted

2006-12-12T05:39:00.000-08:00

i suck at doing the role of a
DAUGHTER
SISTER
GRANDAUGHTER
FRIEND
COMPANION
COLEAGUE

and mostly GIRLFRIEND.
I JUST SUCKED AT IT.
and i truly hate myself for that.
sorry to THOSE affected.
especially YOU.

i almost lost YOU.
i pray to god not for IT to happen again.
because it if does,
i'll be contacting HIM again so that he'll take care of you.

::CURRENTLY IN LOVE WITH THIS SONG::

You didn't say you're sorry
I don't understand
You don't care that you hurt me
And now I'm half the man
That I used to be when it was you and me
You didn't love me enough
My heart may never mend
And you'll never get to love me
Again

family affair

2006-12-10T12:42:00.000-08:00

my family and i went to bf's kenduri.
parents'.
den ate.and his makciks2 and sedares mares.
was looking at me sejak org jejak kat tpt tu
mcm nak makan org gitu.
actually,boleh ah.
fair share.
im big.
so everyone will have a filling piece to themselves.
lol.
im serious.
den his sister ah suroh salam2 bile nak balik.
i swear i was blushing like hell sak.
then proceed to SGH.
my granny kene warded lagi.
sigh.
no comments.
went home hungry.
force myself to eat nasi briyani and sleep afta dat.
darling woke me up at 10pm i tink.
i have no freaking idea wad i was talking abt ah.
so darling if u're reading dis,im sorry if i said something unpleasant k.

woke up-at 2am.
was hungry but too lazy to take the food.
so indulge in/on dove amicelli instead.
gee.
blog-hopping was super fun.
and i was disgusted.
saw few bitches site.
u noe yg from TP tu yg kite tk suke tu.
npk hot guy yg lulu n me dulu skola ugame kt uma die.
budak lame2 ah.
and another one that is somehow related to hani.
eeew.budak pasir ris plak tu.
fuct.

oh b,home ckp"all the best" to me when he found out that we're great together.
aha.

so.today or infact yesterday was ok la.
i got to meet love.
that's all i ask for everyday.=)

uh oh

2006-12-06T01:40:00.000-08:00

In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside
Was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment that I saw you cry
cry..moment that I saw you cry
I wanted to hold you
I wanted to make it go away
I wanted to know you
I wanted to make your everything, all right....

if you think carefully,
the simple and ordinary things we overlook
are truly wondrous,and the most precious
things in life are not man-made.
8 wondersoftheworld:
-to see
-to hear
-to touch
-to taste
-to feel
-to laugh
-to love
- adli

HAPPY 6TH MONTH ANGEL.

Q

2006-12-04T10:31:00.000-08:00

Situation:
You are in a deep deep forest... as you walk on you
saw an old hut standing there
(1) What is the status of the door?
(Opened/closed)
-Opened

You enter the hut and see a table...
(2) What is the shape of the table?
(Round/Oval/Square/Rectangle/Triangle)
-Oval

On top of the table there is a vase... in the vase
there is water.
(3) How much water is it filled up with?
(Full/Half/Empty)
-Half

(4) and what is the vase made of?
[(Glass/porcelain/clay)(metal/plastic/wood)]
-glass

You walk out of the hut... as you carry on your walk
in the forest... you see a waterfall from far...
there is water running down...

(5) What is the speed of the water?
(Choose a number ranging from 0 to 10)
-7

Some time after the waterfall... you step on something
hard on the ground... as you look down... you see
glistening gold in colour. You bend down and pick it
up... it is a keychain chained with keys...

(6) How many key /keys you see hanging on the
keychain?
(Choose a number ranging from 1 to 10)
-3

You walk on and on... trying to find your way out...
suddenly you see a castle.

(7) What is the condition of the castle?
(Old/new)
-old

You enter the castle and saw a pool of murky water
with shining jewels floating on it...
(8) Will you pick up the jewel?
(YES/NO)
-no

Next to the murky pool... there's another pool... with
clear water and money floating on it...

(9) Will you pick the money?
(YES/NO)
-no

Walking to the end of the castle there is an exit...
you proceed to walk out of the castle. Outside the
exit, there is big garden, you see a box on the
ground.

(10) What is the size of the box?
(small/medium/big)
-med

(11) What is the material of the box?
(cardboard/paper/wooden/metal)
-wooden

There is a bridge in the garden some distance away
from the box,
(12) What is the bridge made of?
(metal/wooden/rattan)
-wooden

Across the bridge, there is a horse.
(13) What is the colour of the horse?
(white/grey/brown/black)
-white

(14) What is the horse doing?
(still and quiet/nibbling grass/running about)
-nibbling..

OH NO!!! There is a tornado coming... some distance
from the horse. You have 3 options:
(i) run and hide in the box?
(ii) run and hide under the bridge?
(iii) run to the horse, ride on and gallop away?
-iii
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Here are the interpretations:
(1) The door:
opened door - you are a person who is willing to share
closed door - you are a person who is keeping things
to yourself
WEEE~REALLY EH?

(2) The table:
Round/oval - any friends that came along, you will
accept and trust them completely
Square/rectangle - you are a bit more choosy on
friends and only hangout with those whom you think are
on the same frequency
Triangle - you are really very very picky about
friends and there are not many friends in your life
UH-HUH..

(3) Water in vase:
Empty - your life is not fulfilled
Half filled - what you want in your life is half
fullfilled
Full - your life is completely fulfilled and good for
you! :)
HMM...LONG WAY TO GO...

(4) Material of vase:
glass/clay/porcelain - you are weak in your life and
tends to be fragile
metal/plastic/wood - you are strong in your life
WOO.FRAGILE..

(5) Flow of waterfall:
0 - no sex drive at all
1 to 4 - low sex drive
5 - average sex drive
6 to 9 - high sex drive
10 - gone case!!! super high sex drive!!! Can't live
without sex...
ERR......

(6) Keys:
1 - you have one good friend in your life
2 to 5 - you have a few good friends in your life
6 to 10 - you have a lot good friends
ISH..

(7) Castle:
Old - shows that your last relationship is not a good
one and is not memorable to you.
New - your last relationship is good and it's still
fresh in your heart.
WIC last ONE? GOT SO MANY SIA. TOO BAD yg lame,dulu2 DA LUPE SUME.. THE LATEST AND LAST ONE.IS GOIN ON FOREVER.NAK BET?

(8) The jewel from the murky pool water:
YES - when your partner is around you, you will flirt
around with others.
NO - when your partner is around, you will stick
around with him/her most of the time.
YES.!

(9) The money from the clear water pool:
YES - even when your partner is not around you, you
will still flirt around with others.
NO - even when your partner is not around, you will
still think of her and and will be loyal to her, not
flirting around with others.
YALOR..HE DONT THINK SO. BUT I DUN MIND.I STILL SYG DIE NO MATTER WAD HE TINKS LOR...

(10) The size of the box:
small - low ego
medium - average ego
big - high ego
AHEM.
(11) Material of the box (outlook of the box):
cardboard/paper/wooden(non-shining) - humble
personality
metal - proud and stuck up personality
AHEM AHEM.

(12) The material of the bridge:
metal bridge - have very strong bond with your friends
wooden bridge - average bond with your friends
rattan bridge - you are not in good terms with your
friends
I LIKE WOOD WAD..MCM ALA FAIRY TALE GITU..KAYU MAYU..
(13) Colour of the horse:
white - your partner is pure and good in your heart.
grey/brown - your partner is only average in your
heart.
black - your partner doesn't seem to be good in your
heart and appears to be bad sign.
HE DEFINITELY IS.FULL STOP.
(14) Horse action:
still and quiet/nibbling grass - your partner is a
very homely and humble person.
running about - your partner is a wild type person.
NIBBLING NIPS. AHAHAH.HE IS.PERFECT!
This the last but most important part of the test.
From how I ended the story... a tornado approaches...
What are you going do? There are only 3 options:
(i) run and hide in the box?
(ii) run and hide under the bridge?
(iii) run to the horse, ride on and gallop away?

What will you choose?
Now, the above is signified by these things:
tornado - problems in your life
box - you
bridge - your friends
horse - your partner

(i) So if you choose the box, you keep your problems
to yourself whenever you are met with problems.
(ii) or if you choose the bridge, you will go to your
friends whenever y! ou are m et problems.
(iii) or lastly if you choose the horse, you seek your
partner whenever your partner whenever you are met
with problems.

ERM..YA. I NEED HIM NO MATTER WHAT.SEBAB HE CAN TAKE CARE OF ME NO MATTER WAT THE SITUATION IS.BUT I STILL SAYANG MY FRENS K.

watched tenacious d on sat.
a lil b4 dat we bought bubble tea.(i didnt know he's a fan),change phone acc. saw wak(he looks diff. clnt recgnse him at first.and ate ice cream at ps.
after.
den buat drama kejap.
it was spontaneous sak.
i was like possesed.
i love him so much.
cried for so long.
and thinks are back to norm.
seriously, i cant lose him,let him go.just like dat.
no him=no life.
so ,ya...
the unanswered question.
i predict a few ans for it.
there cld be some..
at least one.
and i want u to say it soo badly.
but u didnt.
ok fine.
maybe dats not the ans.
but i can feel it at tat tym.
so fucking strong.
u just like to keep it to urself.
and always tot tat i have no idea bout it.
but,u're the one hu hv no idea of wads happening.
yet,i love u still.

73337333

2006-12-03T18:13:00.000-08:00

jam n hop.
according to bf.-underaged party/clubbing.
hey! i was enjoying every minute of it sia.
it was fuckalakadingdong awesome.!
since bf's not ard. i turn myself to become a lessy for the day and dance with girls.
wee~ ma gurls. kan babes?
best kan?
and of course kite mrepek giler. sembarang hentam joget hal sendiri.
ahah.
eh wait. mother's calling.have to go to sgh.tgk nenek. bye. cont later k .~daa.

ok im back. balik dari hospital,beli makan kt geylang. for fam. den balik mkn pastu tido.slept for few hrs. bgn meet bf.buy food n bubble tea.go acc him study. i forced him to do it. kalau boleh abis kan skali. kan senang b.aiya.den i wana play swing. den go sunplaza park. last kat elephant ride ade pervert babisialcibaikedondong kacau. sibok sak!! den tros balik. yg kekek,semase nk naik motor tu org jatuh kt rumput. mcm nangke busok. malu nyer!!!!!!!

oh, im trying to like my new phone.urgh.

must watch!!!

2006-11-27T10:54:00.000-08:00

out accordingly:

the holiday-dec 14(www.the-holiday-movie-com)
man of the year-jan 18(www.manoftheyearmovie.net)
accepted-jan 18(www.acceptedmovie.com)
norbit-feb 15 (recommended!!f.funny.for trailer-www.meetnorbit.com)
bf might love this, transformers-july 4 (www.transformersmovie.com)

enjoy.

2006-11-27T10:21:00.000-08:00

ATTENTION THE DARLINGS:
I rindu u all lah.
jom jumpe soon.
kite gi fish n co ke.
boleh?
or sheesha ke.
boleh?
eat ice cream ke.
boleh?
haha.
irritating tak.
??
hahah.
but betol i wanna meet u girls real soon.
oh i was thinking the other day what i LIKE/LOVE bout u girls:
ton=i-hate-u-bcos-of-ur-lashes partl
nad=i-hate-u-bcos-of-ur-lashes partll
eemah=i-hate-u-bcos-of-ur-lashes partlll
bad=miss oh-so-natural-and-beautiful
nina=i hate u bcos u cut ur lashes. BUT i like all ur small little tiny parts.bcos all of that equals to u!

hahah.
ok ah faz merepek kan.
bye ah.

2006-11-25T05:37:00.000-08:00

PEOPLE only like me when i have money.
what.the.fuck.
i hate it when that happens.

hfvdjhgnkujhklj

2006-11-21T06:40:00.000-08:00

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name: Nurfaziela Mustafa
Birthday: 9th September 1987
Birthplace: Singapore
Current Location: Singapore
Eye Color: Dark brown
Hair Color: no idea
Height: 156cm?
Right Handed or Left Handed: Rightey
Your Heritage: Malay.Chinese.Indian.
The Shoes You Wore Today: mom's flippies.
Your Weakness: my heart.and kindess?
Your Fears: not being loved.
Your Perfect Pizza: not too much cheese.yikes.
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: i dont want any stress.
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: "anything,sembarang laa..tak kisah ah."
Thoughts First Waking Up: does he still loves me?because i love him more everyday.
Your Best Physical Feature: eyes(said by darling)nose(by tone)lips(4gt who)
Your Bedtime: 1:30 earliest.
Your Most Missed Memory: the first month spent with my adli.
Pepsi or Coke: coke
MacDonalds or Burger King: burger king
Single or Group Dates: single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: lipton ice tea
Chocolate or Vanilla: vanilla please
Cappuccino or Coffee: cappucino
Do you Smoke: no
Do you Swear: yes.
Do you Sing: yea
Do you Shower Daily: yea.ahaha.
Have you Been in Love: def
Do you want to go to College: no
Do you want to get Married: of course.
Do you belive in yourself: sometimes.
Do you get Motion Sickness: no
Do you think you are Attractive: oh but of course.. lol
Are you a Health Freak: err..
Do you get along with your Parents: mm..
Do you like Thunderstorms: depends.
Do you play an Instrument: used to
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: nope
In the past month have you Smoked: no
In the past month have you been on Drugs: panadol?cough syrup?
In the past month have you gone on a Date: many many. =P
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: many many..
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: cant rmbr.
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: 4gt laaa
In the past month have you been on Stage: nah..
In the past month have you been Dumped: no
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: nopesy.
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: yea. my baby's heart.
Ever been Drunk: never.
Ever been called a Tease: yea...
Ever been Beaten up: yes
Ever Shoplifted: accidentally
How do you want to Die: like how i want it to be.
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: a good girlfriend?because now im not.kan adli?
What country would you most like to Visit: beverly hills.
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: adli's
Favourite Hair Color: adli's
Short or Long Hair: whatever adli likes.
Height: adli's
Weight: adli's
Best Clothing Style: adli's

Number of Drugs I have taken: pADLIcetamol counts?
Number of CDs I own: nta
Number of Piercings: used to be six.i eliminate 1.
Number of Tattoos: eee.
Number of things in my Past I Regret: spreading mucus on my cuzzie's face,beat up my sister like a mad psycho woman,it,removed from sch.and lots more...

::from the left.then to the left,to the left.=)

2006-11-20T09:37:00.000-08:00

went shopping with lulu the bitch aka my sister.
bougt a black stretchable pants and green d.perkins top.
bought lulu a dress at bugis st.and shades too. and earrings.
and ate at fish n co. all my money.
fuct.!so my pay is due soon.
and more shopping.
im buying bodyshop make-up tmrw..err..later that is.
hopefully.
i miss spending time everyday with adli.
really.
if can everyday i wanna meet him without interruptions of course.
impossible for now
sigh.

-i became somebody through loving you.

sq

2006-11-18T07:22:00.000-08:00

i'm thinking 'bout suicide again.
it's making a comeback.
no one can help me now.

2006-11-17T01:08:00.000-08:00

Your Kissing Purity Score: 74% Pure

For you, kissing isn't a casual thing

Lip to lip action makes your heart sing

Kissing Purity Test

What Your Face Says

At first glance, people see you as warm and well-balanced.

Overall, your true self is reserved and logical.

With friends, you seem dramatic, lively, and quick to react.

In love, you seem mysterious and interesting.

In stressful situations, you seem selfish and moody.

What Do People Think Of Your Face?

If You Were Born in 2893...

Your Name Would Be: Iara Reunn

And You Would Be: An Alien Anthropologist

If You Were Born in 2893

You Are A Romantic

You life your life like a fairy tale... or at least you try to.
Living for magical moments, you believe there's only one true love for you.
Love is the most important thing in your life, and you don't take it for granted.
Your perfect match loves to be in love as much as you do!

Are You Romantic or Realistic?

You Are 76% Gross

You're pretty dirty, and there's a good change you're living in a total dump.
And your body? Not too clean either. Watch out for killer bacteria, Pig Pen!

How Gross Are You?

You Communicate With Your Body

This isn't as bad as it sounds, it just means that you're a "touchy-feely" person.
You need a lot of affection in your life. And for you, this means both giving and receiving little touches.
Warm hearted, you bond with people easily. In fact, you often feel a little sad when you're not in the company of others.
A little moody, you tend to be controlled by your emotions. But a bit hug always comforts you!

How Do You Communicate?

You Are Very Honest

You tell it like it is, no matter what.
Even if the truth hurts, you'll dish it out.
And while some may get hurt by your honesty...
At least everyone knows where you stand!

How Honest Are You?

You Are 72% Obsessive

You tend to have obsessive thoughts, and sometimes these cross over into your daily life.
While everyone does have a few weird rituals, you have to work to keep yours from taking over your life.

How Obsessive Are You?

You've Changed 80% in 10 Years

Compared to who you were ten years ago, you've changed a great deal.
In fact, you're probably in a completely different phase of your life - and very happy about it!

How Much Have You Changed in 10 Years?

Your Lucky Underwear Is Red

You're confident and bold, and your lucky red underwear will only make you more sure of yourself.
You have a great zest for life, and you tend to take on impossible goals - and succeed.

When it comes to love, it's hard for you to take the time to open up. You're too busy conquering the world.
So if you're looking for a little more romance, put on your red underpants. And see where their passion takes you!

What Color Is Your Lucky Underwear?

Your Wrestler Name Is...

Ebony Nightmare

What's Your Wrestler Name?

Your Attitude is Better than 50% of the Population

You have a positive attitude... somtimes. You prefer to see the world through clear glasses, not rose colored ones.

How's Your Attitude?

You Are a Drama Queen (or King)

And the oscar goes to... you!
You're all about overreacting and just plain acting.
You see the world as your stage, and give a great performance.

And while you're friends may find you entertaining at times...
Everyone's secretly hoping that you'll just chill a little.
(But they'd never tell you - they fear your wrath!)

Are You a Drama Queen (or King)?

berry mix

2006-11-14T09:13:00.000-08:00

get me THESE for christmas.i'll bless u.

->
"!!!"

->

"oh yes i do!! yes please!! i do i do i do!!!"

->

"m...e..l..t..s.."

i know what i'm gonna get in the end.*winks*

But dammit, Jesse Metcalfe is so fucking hot I want him to rape my ass and give me babies.

Why oh fucking why are all the guys in this third world shithole called the Philippines SOOOO FUCKING FUGLY in comparison to Jesse Metcalfe?

God I hate this shithole. I really do.

And I love Jesse Metcalfe.

Oh and I'm Eva fucking Longoria.

I'm gonna finish this episode, sleep, wake up in 5 hours and have my maid Eunice take photos of me coming out of a huge pink box while I throw lots of confetti high up in the air.

guess who said the above sentences in bold?
a faggot.
a fucking faggot.
die pk die hot.
ahaha.
he's a bitch ah.
i mean she's a jerk.
ahaha
either way.
i personally like the one i underlined.
ahhahaa.
maknyah siak.
eeew.

emergency

2006-11-13T07:31:00.000-08:00

i like the one yg 2nd frm left. mcm hot gitu..ahhaha..

feelings,shopping,long hours of sleep,all..
pending
pending
pending
*fold arms and sulk*

2006-11-08T02:13:00.000-08:00

and so, i write about superhero.
well at least i've got my own.
right?
sorry, no naruto or whatever shit.
hee.
i write about my own comic starring my own superhero.
not like any other superficial ones.
and i'm so proud to have my own hero.

i love you too.

2006-11-05T07:11:00.000-08:00

where should i start.

sunburnt.
f. fatigue.
pissed.
in love. still.

ok start.
went to sentosa.
swam.
like after a decades.
yes i did that.
know why?
im with my superhero.
so whenever he's around there's nothing to worry about. repeat it, N-O-T-H-I-N-G.
i didnt even doll up my face.
ahaha.
surprise?
tried to tan but end up burnt.
cos im too stingy to buy protective lotion.
sigh.
so end up like roasted pig duck chicken cow sheep...whatever.
my superhero is sweeter than the whole candy empire put up together(btw,its a v.big candy store in vivocity,go check it out!)
he swam to the small island upfront while i stay on the opposite.
and i thought he's going to "carve" my name on the sand,
but it reads out "I ♥ U" instead.
how happy can a girl be.
it's so big that others can see.
lucky he took time to swim back cos by then i'd stop blushing already. flattered!!!
we freshen up and rushed to vivo. i hate myself when i trouble him or create any hassle.but i didnt show la.went to f21 straight. f. crowded lor. and all the 'L' sizes are gone wtf?!! den to topshop. back to f21. still cant decide i venge my anger on this gorgeous bag. yum yum! still want that sweater though. sigh.

card da kering. lapar plak tu. superhero brougt me to 24/7 kfc. yay!
if can i dont wanna leave him as in i want him to be by my side every second or the other way round. but that's quite impossible FOR NOW.=) he sent me home. i love him. sorry, info tak penting.HAAA.

like what superhero said...i always want things. not that i really need it.
hmm..one thing je i know. i need him. yg materials tu sume actually tk perlu. tapi biase lah kan. manusie tamak tak pernah bersyukur dgn ape yg ade. abeh kalau nak org bersyukur, jgn lah buat produk baru!!!! bangang.!!

and dgn tak serik nye..
mari ku mempersembahkan cravings ku...
(pics later)

N7390 in pink or bronze.

Sony Mylo

......
to be cont..

2006-11-02T07:19:00.000-08:00

i bought necklaces online.
well actually it was through lulu jugak.
one of her bestie jual. above is one out of the three.
3 for 38bux.
yay! i got discount again.
now i need to find tops to suit those darlings.
still waiting for my jeans tho.
and waiting for the vouchers so i can shop more at d. perkins.

sugar bought me a new helmet.
white one that is.
thanks you sayang.
u can skip the sweater.
i'll buy on my own.
i tink i'll go super crazy when i visit vivo.
i tink we'll see.
update more ya.
daa~~

you belong to me

2006-10-29T08:45:00.000-08:00

after a long time...i finally cried.
for a good reason.
for love.
no.
not that type of love that i used to ramble about.
its about the love that u really love and will love with all your love.
understand?

nevermind.

after work, i went to popeye's with sayang.
my treat.
and when i say my treat means it's really MY treat la degil!
ate and head to bugis to shop.
nasib .
kedai sume da nk tutop.
bought jeans at perkins.
dotsy top and peeptoes heel at bugis st.
maklumlah kedai da tutop. da mlm. so beli murah2 nye dulu.
bla3.
the date was ______.
lovey dovey.
serious.
i love him so much la sial.
ha! kan da smpi termaki-maki.
sebab da tk tahan.
da giler.

dot dot dot

someone gave me a mini letter.
after reading it.
i cried.
even the salesgirls told me u're very sweet.
very sweet indeed.
so sweet u are.

2nd day raye.

2006-10-25T13:38:00.000-07:00

kawan-kawan bile nak jalan raye?
sigh.

SHR

2006-10-23T05:57:00.000-07:00

selamat hari raya all of you!!!
kepade sesiape yg msg saye..minta maaf ye..budget dgn malas nk balas..so lagi senang ucapkan kat sini ok?
bolekan?
maaf zahir batin semua!!

By the way, my tag board something wrong.
but it was always there all the time.

sq-zeyra:selamat ari raye too u too sayang..and buat mase skrg ni i dont have any lobang keje.lobang lain ade..kau nak??haha..y dont u try jobstreet.com..bagus jgk ah tu bende...

sq-nina:ye syg..but im still buying the newest one...lagi wangi!!!yay!

sq-cherry:tagboard aku mmg kat ctu all while..cume rosak je..ahhahhaa..and pls eh..kalau ton nk jugak gi buat blog baru..ahaha..cute eh name "nina jugak"..

26 Things That A

Perfect Guy Would Do

1. Know how to make you smile when you are down.

2. Try to secretly smell your hair, but you always notice.

3. Stick up for you, but still respects your independence.......

4. Give you the remote control during the game.

5. Come up behind you and put his arms around you.

6. Play with your hair.

7. His hands always find yours.

8. Be cute when he really wants something.

9. Offer you plenty of massages.

10. Dance with you, even if he feels like a dork.

11. Never run out of love.

12. Be funny, but know how to be serious.

13. Realize he's being funny when he needs to be serious.

14. Be patient when you take forever to get ready.

15. React so cutely when you hit him and it actually hurts.......

16. Smile a lot.

17. Plans a romantic date full of cheesy things he wouldn't normally like to do, just because he knows it means a lot to you.

18. Appreciate you.

19. Help others out.

20. Drive 5 hours just to see you for 1.

21. Always gives you a peck on the cheek when you depart from each others company, even when his friends are watching.

22. Sing, even if he can't.

23. Have a creative sense of humor.

24. Stare at you.

25. Call for no reason.

26. Quit smoking, chewing, drinking, or drugs - just because he loves u that much to quit it.

2006-10-19T04:22:00.000-07:00

my family really need our own privacy.
desperately.
at least i do.
this question keeps playing on my mind.
when are we sending her back to i dont care where.?
why do my parents like to clean up people's shit.
what the fuck.
i hate it especially when it affects me.
no, im not being selfish.
if others have problems and refuse to learn their lesson why the hell must we help them.
i believed in " own shit,own problem "
when i was removed from my previous school, i was practically doing nothing but sit at home and hope SOME MIRACLE would happen to me.
but no.i have to find job. im not growing younger. i dont wanna grow up, but i have to because by nature law that is part and parcel of human cycle.
so back to the problem, yes, she's rather annoying. sometimes an irritant. really,we cant keep her here forever. and please, ppl tot my family is sooooo wealthy just because father earns +- $7000 a month. get this right; 7k is just enuff for US .my house or anything gotta do with our property is not welfare. we dont owe or provide people, a/their living. so please eh, i really hope this matter will be solve. as soon as possible. somehow, somewhat, i feel that my life has been interrogated. wth.

oh, at work: it's going fine as it is...
Govind, one of the custom officer gave me a nickname.
Snow White it is.
or sometimes faz(da pandai eh kau!)
aha.
when he saw me,his first question was : "do u even have blood in ur body??"
because i was pratically white?
i wanna be pale.
or at least paler?
he was gossiping in hindi with Kina about how i look like.if only i could understand them.i do a bit but not the local hindi..haha. so at last the word "babydoll' came out. ahaha. so maybe they were talking abt my looks?
i dont know..
ya i get that a lot of time...
and yea more nicknames..Kina call me Sayang..she calls everyone that. i can see that she's a very good mother. i clique with her very well.it's like i feel comfortable ard her..but she's quitting soon. hmmm...there goes my only hope.so it means that i have to find another person to get comfy with.
bukan ape i ni pemalu la. heee.sumpah.tak reti nak buat2 kawan ni sume. miss tay plak calls me Fatimah what the hell..oh fatimah kape!! she susah nak pronounce my name. thats y.
for me, ziela is fine.=) ok?

and btw, i cant wait to visit Vivo City.
i hope they have the shops that im gonna but my stuff at.
10 days to heaven?

oh, a miracle happened a few weeks or whatever-time back;god whispered to me and told me which of his creation i'm marrying.yay!

dear doctor...

2006-10-16T05:57:00.000-07:00

it started again.
went to the toilet consequently.
and there's still blood.
no, not menstruation blood.
it came with the feaces.
sigh.
and when i stand up,
it drips.
it's purely ruby red.

question: am i dying.?
this time i dont want to.
because i have dreams.
and it includes loving him 'till the end.

2006-10-14T06:39:00.000-07:00

Aku ingin menjadi mimpi indah dalam tidurmu.

Aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yang mungkin kau rindu.

Aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yang selalu bisa kau sentuh.

Aku ingin kau tahu bahawa ku selalu memuja mu.

pookeymuggcow urgh

2006-10-10T10:30:00.000-07:00

am at work now.
tadi mcm sial.
i didnt bring my phone.
i went to 711 buy drink for myself.
check myspace.
den went to toilet.
pastu balik je,
ade miss call n msg dari satu hamba allah tu.
tibe2 je cari pasal.
buat org binget tk tentu pasal.
mintak kene maki je.
org call2 tk nak angkat tk pasal.
suro kakak die ckp die da tido plak tu.
(**&^^^%$%$###$@@@!!!!!! la.
dah terang2 nak carik pasal ngn org kan.
oh btw, ton, nonok aku da tk berdarah lagi.
so tkde pms.
aku mmg tgh marah sgt ni!!
so cannot blame pms k.
whatever la eh kepade satu org tu!!!

later darlingS,(the girls[i hv to put tis sebab skrg im not allowed to hv guy friends]*roll eyes*)nk buka puase kat geylang same2. nina ckp jumpa kat payar lebar mrt stn..hmm..ok..i hope we will hv lotsa fun because seriously i need to de-stress myself.

oh btw, im still planning a mini party for bf. a party wic include me and him.i hope he'll like it. pade die masih lame lagi..not to me..im gonna make it hppn no matter what.

btw, thanks to YOU for giving me the reason to eat and eat for the past few days. bitch.

2006-10-10T00:12:00.000-07:00

bye :(

meri mehbooba

2006-10-08T07:33:00.000-07:00

the past.
the memories.
the songs.

not in order:
adi(matrep motor-keje postman)-sunshine[lea/lilflip]
mus-jiwang{mepek pepek}
ayus-bunga emas[saleem]
imie-only one[yellowcard]
wan(cina wdlds)-raggae{mcm sial nye matrep}
jasman-i'm not okay[mcr],almost here[bryan/delta g.]
adi(ozzie-prasan jubs)-memory[sugarcult],dari sinar mata [bumiputera rockers]
razeen-the loneliness[babyface],i wont see u tonight [a.s]
phique-relaku pujuk[spider]
yan frenzied-helena[mcr],emo2 shits..
takin-just a lil bit[50 cent}{chit podah seposen pon tk heran la *&^^%$$#!!!!}
lan-bestfriend[50 cent], cute without the 'e'[taking back sunday]

i WAS stuck with these songs..
wth fuck.

ADLI-__________________.
WONDER WHAT'S NEXT.
DO WE HAVE A SONG?
DO WE EVEN NEED ONE?
I WANT TO KNOW BADLY.
AND FROM YOUR OWN MOUTH.

Sometimes I feel so full of love
It just comes spilling out
It's uncomfortable to see
I give it away so easily
But if I had someone I would do anything
I'd never, never, ever let you feel alone
I won't I won't leave you, on your own

But who am I to dream?
Dreams are for fools, they let you down...

keempat

2006-10-05T09:04:00.000-07:00

i still have a few minutes left.
happy 4th month!!!
yay!!
cheers.
i love u so much.

kekasihku

2006-10-04T00:47:00.000-07:00

omg!!!
i was browsing my inbox at myspace. and i found one unread msg.
it's from a nigga.
and when i opened it, i got the shock of my life.
how could anyone say that to me...
even my boyfriend didnt say that kind of flowery language to me. or maybe not yet.
ahahaha.

here it goes:

Date: Sep 13 2006 12:59 AM
Subject: hello
Body: Dearest Beauty,
I can picture your beauty in my heart from the very moment i saw your profile,please come to me and let me write you the most romantic poem you deserve the best of love. still I cant get your beautiful looks out of my head since i gaze into your profile,i cant get your lovely smile out of my heart, If there was anything more beautiful than you, I would surely have picked it but there is none. You make my heart fill with love, whenever I go through your profile,
How I wish you will let me get close to you, to picture your beauty, to fill your heart with love, to adore your love,I promise never to let you roam around the reproaches of been hurt in love ,i promise to be there for you, I want to be there when you need me, in good times and bad times, so I say, "LOVE. my love has no boundaries dont care about ages of time , because to me is just a number, my love has no pain, all i ask from you,is an open exit to your heart, my love is from my heart, True love hears what is not spoken, and understands what is not explained, for love doesn't work in the ear, nor the mind, but in the heart. The fickleness of the women I love is only equalled by the infernal constancy of the women who love me. I want to love and be loved in return. I want to share everything with you beacuse you are the woman of my dreams, for the rest of my life, in the good and the bad, inhappy and in sad moments. To be happy and to make you more happier, to give all the warmth of my heart. I believe in love, respect, understanding, and friendship. I dreamt of a happy family life, filled with trust, peace, and beauty, side by side with you and only you.have been searching for a woman with a romantic soul and an open heart, someone with whom I can share the life adventure, someone who likes to talk about everything, someone that understand what it means to beloved. Well am not in particularly about races, my love has no boundary, it has no colour, it has no race, all my love needs is care, Support, happiness, trust and sincerity, if you can show all this qualities then i see no reason why I cant get to know you. (In a good way). Hopefully, you will have the same impression of me. Call me now 65-xxxxxxxx, or you can write me at xxxxxxxx1972@yahoo.com.sg. Lets build a love that the all world would cherished. you are my soul mate the one i see in my dreams, there have not been a night have not thought of you ever since i read your mail, i wish you can see my heart,to feel the indeptment of your love burning inside me.
Don

oh, number and any other personal details are replaced by the 'x' to seal identity.
hahha.

eewww!

2006-10-02T12:47:00.000-07:00

im at werk.
i freagin bored.
i miss adli, my love.
and i miss bed.
and i miss helping mum in the kitchen.
i miss darlings.
i miss sleeping late at night.
i miss going online often.
i miss photoshop.
i miss my last life-shape.

sigh.

2006-09-29T22:20:00.000-07:00

wee~
im back.
like anyone care.
so the siglap clan went to Baladi yest.
ok la the food.
feezo jahat..
ajar org 2nd round sume..
ahahah.
tkla..
tapi ok pe..
28 bux per person babe!!!
byk2 pon tkpe...
and then we went to kampung glam..
it was ok..
more to boring...
then jalan satu round je da give up.
sebab boring sangat.
dahlah berpeluh2.
benci.

today..so many plans..
nadiah ajak gi make-up class ..
mother ajak gi sumwer..
sis ajak gi tgk "little miss sunshine"..
but i want to go out with _____________.
so i hope he consider himself lucky.
kalau tak jugak...
tak tau ape nk cakap.
so we'll be eating at soufra
watch movie
and i wanna go shopping...
for perfume...i think..
what a stupid entry...
work made me dumb.
i woke up yest not knowing what day it was and dunnoe wat im supposed to do next..
wth.
bye lah!!
i think im gettin my period...
kjgvunaufhugayduh!!

i cant stop loving you

2006-09-25T01:12:00.000-07:00

It still feels like our first night together
Feels like the first kiss and
It's gettin' better baby
No one can better this
I'm still hold on and you're still the one
The first time our eyes met it's the same feelin' I get
Only feels much stronger and I wanna love ya longer
You still turn the fire on

i dont wanna do this anymore

2006-09-22T05:10:00.000-07:00

Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

why should i be sane without you?

2006-09-21T06:08:00.000-07:00

summary of recent lifestory:(at work)
excess
excess
short
excess

reason of excess: lotsa day-dreaming. lots of it.

painkiller: comments from airport staffs and passengers.

"u're short.*smiles and bend down on knees to my height*"

"well hello there, u'relooking good today."

"good morning!u've got a very nice smile"

"hello.pretty smile. is dat for me today or u smile like that any other day?"

"do i sign here? oh sign again? u must really like my signature"

macam2 karenah.
mcm hari raye.
beraneka kuihmuih.
tapi makan byk jelak jugak kan?

abeh ade cite2 jgk.
ade one of us.
dpt passenger yg kasi wrong voucher.
passenger to pegi kasi receipt for blowjob.
yes! let me repeat BLOWJOB SERVICES!!!
siallah. ade receipt lagi.
den pax to da paiseh die tarik balik.
gosh wad happn to singapore??!
it's ridiculous.
illegal kan?
nak buat buat ah free ke.
i mean dis kinda tings mcm mrepek gitu nk ade receipt.
wth.

tadi pagi2 bute, i watched alexandria.
sweet story.
i miss zaman indon dulu.
muahaha.
and i found new buah hati.
their names are fachri albar and marcel chandrawinata.
fachri is charming.
super hot .
with a mix of arab gitu.
and that scruffy look plus goatee.
*melts*

marcel's a sweetheart.
i cld somehow relate him to myself.
he's a thinker.
very arty farty.
into art and comics and graf.
he wont tell that person if he fall for her.
keep it inside until things hppn and he'll regret it.
oh, he's a cutie.

i dont know who to choose.
ahhahaha.
dream on?

oh and to YOU,
in case u haven't notice,
i'm still waiting.

I've been sitting here, can't get you off my mind.
I'd try my best to be your girl and be strong
I drove myself insane wishing i could touch your face
But the truth remains..your gone.....

date: 18th September 2006

2006-09-19T10:19:00.000-07:00

death time - 06:51:43 pm

crown of scars

2006-09-18T07:06:00.000-07:00

u rushed home for nothing.
sorry i didn't know that.
sorry i forgot to call u to tell u that the plan's cancelled.
sorry.i truly am.
we didn't meet up today.

That doesn't mean we can't meet up in our dreams like we usually do.
i'll see you soon.
we'll be in everforeverneverland.
just the two of us.
♥ u.

-loving you is what i was trying to do-

what hurts the most

2006-09-16T00:36:00.000-07:00

to adli: the song kat myspace tu, that's for u darling.

yest my 2nd day at work..
boring sak..
so nxt time nak bwk vcds, paper to doodle on, puzzle books or wadeva shitss..
not 4getting my mints..and chocs and stupid snacks so i wont be going for break(s) alone. patethic seh..jahat..kene pegi srg2..takde org nk teman... APE STIM MAKAN SORANG2????! im like tat.. buat bende nk berteman..lagi seronok.kan kwn2?? haha. kalau boleh suapkan skali..senang..heeee.

anybody want to accompany me eat popeye-?? kat t1. sape2 sudi contact me pls.. haha..stupid invitation..sebab mesti tk ramai org nk temankan..faziela bodo kental bacin..hpppmhff!

tadi nenek kol.
die ckp pakcik nk ajak saye klua.
nak beli kan brg utk hadiah harijadi saye kemarin.
nenek saye da nyanyok2 skit.
so die ckp pakcik nk belikan saye seluar..
haha.
tapi saye rase die salah anggap..
maybe die nk belikan telefon ke.,..
haha
perasaan la saye.
saye nk yg n73 tu..ke 6280 ke..ke nk keypad die mcm keyboard..bole type2 main game gitu..haha..dream on.
later im on night shift..
another day of ______________.
i nk jumpe bf.
i wonder when die nk jumpe me.
sebab kalau slalu tanye, die akan jawab: "sembarang..it's all up to you.."
i wonder when is the time that it's not up to me.
why cant he understand no matter how stubborn i can be, i want him to take control..i tak reti lah nk buat decision..nk control2 ni sume.. i tau ah u pon tk suke..but did u at least try?
*sigh*

semalam ayus call saye lagi.
saye dah faham nah perangai die.
die cube nak flirt2 dgn saye.
die ckp suare saye seksi lah..(sebab mase tu suare saye serak2 basah..maklumlah tengah penat sungguh, malas nk layan die pon ade..tapi saye sabar je.)
saye sedih.
sebab biler kite masih bersame dulu, die tk pon behave mcm tu kan.
abis, selepas dah tak ade ape2..die cube nak tawan hati saye semule.
bukan ape, saye dah pon kasi die peluang yg kedue.
dihindarnye.
tk peduli pon die.
masih same perangai die.
jadi pade mase tu, saye da buat keputusan untuk melepaskan die.
biarlah die pegi..jauh2..
kalau gitu lah perangai die, saye rela.
lepas tu skrg da masok ns..abis nak datang kat saye balik nak tumpang kasihan.
nak kongsi cerite , pengalaman die kt dalam camp.
kite bebual sekejap..
pastu letak.
saye teringat balik kisah dulu.
saye sedih semule.*sigh*

sudahlah. da pukol empat ni..
saye nak mandi..
heee.
nak gi keje...
tkde org nak layan saye..

saye sayang famili saye.
saye sayang kawan-kawan saye.
tapi yang penting,
saye sayang adli.(=

scent-say-tion

2006-09-13T10:19:00.000-07:00

meet up the darlings.bad_nad_ton.the little one missing. miss her terribly.
went to town.wisma first. then walk and walk..at last..far east. i bought only 3 pairs of earrings. sigh. i was so hungry i ate long john and fried mars bar!!! wohoo. macam nak beli banyak2 gitu.[ sayang suro belikan die tapi dat thing akan melt seh.. so sorry..cannot. must go there and eat la darling oi.. one day we'll go k?] den we sat luar bk. decide punye decide. at last tk jadi.. dudok lame plak tu..den take train to tamp..meet bf. yay! den as usual i bought snapple and chocs. haha i've no intention of dieting these days.. sebab da tk kuase.. i got wad i want..im happy. seriously..i am.and saye haus sgt sampai pegi kedai nampak ice lollies.beli!!!due in green. alah..air batu yg pjg tu..muahaha.gian ah dgn yu bende..da lame tk isap..i mean mkn..ahaha. mcm budak2..sebab dulu kecik2 slalu beli..den..stargaze at the usual spot..best. gerek..and lastly...ALMOST!!!!!!!=P

absolute irritant

2006-09-12T06:37:00.000-07:00

she's the most irritating person ever.
fuck la.
org da pening..bising2 plak tu..
hello?! get this straight will u; we dont need ur fuckin opinion!!!
just shuddup and mind ur own business.!! everytime something pops up...ade je nak celah..kpo nak mampos..tak bole ckp pelan2 plak tu.. what the hell!! bingit sakkk...

just now first day of work. boring siol!!!! so basically i've to handle lotsa cash.. u know, duit monopoly..yang gitu2..tapi..ni real money la.. ders like 1k notes, 500 notes..50..and below..till 5 cents..and i'll get to see hot/not hot tourists.. not forgetting the hott policemen excluding the gatal ones.. hey wait a min, i love policeman and footballer..and i've got both! 2-in-1. and he's more than that. so yea.. just eye-washing. nothing more.. and ders alot of minah and kakak kakak. eww. trust me. i wont be like them.. c'mon... im not rite? muahahahah.

tmrw goin out wif darlings...we're goin to town..den meet DARLING.REAL DARLING!! whenever im with him, i'll tend to forget everything else.. foreget the time,responsibilities,rules and regulation,everything la....i guess its a good thing. sometimes i feel like killing everyone else so that we can be alone..
hah...selfish tot ryt der...

i hate human beings-.

happy queenday to me.

2006-09-11T05:49:00.000-07:00

thanks to people like mama,nasrul,shahera,zura,nadiah,sayangku,maton,bad,nina,raz,and the rest that i've not mentioned.for the b'dae wish i mean. weee~
eventho nobody asked me out,and i have to stay at home until im literally sick,i should be thankful.that im still alive.ur love keeps me alive.thanks people.

i am sam.
magnificent!
should watch it if u have not.
i would watch it over and over again. and still cry..
it touched my heart.really.

my apology to people that i've promised.
about the "camp".
i wanted to go.
but my first day of my first job is tomorrow,12 sept.
really sorry.
(kalau takde pape org da pegi da..)
so take care darlings..sesiape yg pegi..
oh and wish me luck..im still a bit nervous..

just now went shopping..for clothes (formal) for the job..
but knowing me..haha..formal kebabai..ape lagi.. amik ape org nak..
but tak branded sgt la.nanti da dpt gaji baru boleh...ahaha.
and i bought this court shoes for 79.90..but i really want the p.cardin one..95 bux..nah..nvm...

anyway...i owe halimaton shahidah big time...because maybe without her, i wont get the job..
actually she helped me create an account at jobst. that's y. i wont forget u. u all too.especially my paranoid boyfriend who keeps projecting shallow thoughts. about me going out or making new guy friends..and started dating them when i've started work already...darling read dis,------>THAT IS TOTAL BULLSHIT.!! FULL OF CRAP.!!
im not gonna leave u la..wth.sigh....

fact:
reasons why u should have a ~~fat~~,chubby,~~big~~,~~huge~~,cute, LECAK girlfriend.

-at the playground;
1) u'll always be on top when both of you play see-saw.(aint it fun?!!)
2) u'll swing higher than her when both of you play on the swing.(ha!)
3) u'll reach the top first on spider webs.u'll even have time to laugh at her clumsiness.

-anywhere;
1) she can be ur portable cushion.
2) cold? she can warm u up.(hee..)
3) u can hide behind her if u wanna avoid something/somebody..

haha..mrepek ah..btw ppl, pardon my absence when u dont see me updating my blog or online like always...this is life.this is just the beginning.

santa's not real.adli is.

2006-09-08T07:26:00.000-07:00

tomorrow is my birthday.
and i dont want to ask for any present.(if i did, means,im kidding)
because...
i found what i've been looking for all this while.
and my number one fear right now is to lose him.
after much pondering,i've realised that god sent me my gift from above few months ago.
so it's a birthday gift in advanced.
so i must thank god that i've finally found you.
here's a brief story on how i met my prezzie.
as u know,at that time, tgh giler2 myspacing.
den browse ard..add2 and all..
den i saw tis average looking profile...
so i just add him.
first impression-not handsome.
den just comment2 each other..
try to know each other...
chat at msn for e first time,i still cant believe i told him my lifestory..
like im so comfortable with him..tat i cld tell aniting everyting..without lying.
and so exchange number...something like that..
den he called for the first time.
he was sounded so bloody sarcastic at first.
so i try to act tough.
and play rough.
meaning-i treat him the way he treat me.
fairness.
chat till wee hours..
den mcm da naik sedap gitu..
naik shiok bebual
sampai kalau satu hari die tk kol i feel..empty..
padahal..we're just friends at that time..
den one day he told me..
he's in atight position.
sebab he have to choose between two girls.
me and the other.
i didnt know at first that he's seeing/dating someone else..
but i can feel it la..
so(dgn berat hatinye..)saye give in..
abeh tu sedih2...
i told him in life we have to sacrifice..
so i did..
abeh pastu tak cntact..
and i lied to him dat the other guy im contacting is interested in me..(padahal i "dump" that guy already)
and so..sedih2 nak mampos..nangis2 mlm2..
mcm sial ah prangai..da start "hate guys forever balik" lah...
den dah tk comment each other..
nampak kt msn tk tegur sape pun..
i step busy ah...
padahal merajok..bunge-ing.
den one day die tegur..
say hi/hello and all..
den chat n chat..
suddenly he said he miss me.
first thought-"jantan sial..ni npk sah da kene dump carik org..nk bodek2 konon!blah lah!"
den..being me..too humble..senang give in..
i gave him a 2nd chance.
den..
he told me everything..
den die mati nk jumpe...
im like so paranoid sebab malu dgn rupe sendiri..gemok la..bla3..
die tk caye..
nk jumpe jgk..
den nekad ah..
rasak kau lah ..nak jumpe sgt kan..
den mt..
dah mlm plak tu...
and he ride a bike..
meaning i hv to ride it too..
abeh nervous..sebab dah lame tk naik moto..
memalukan..
mcm budak bodoh seh first2..
den tgk movie..the nun.
duduk kt wayang kaki masih menggeletar2...
malooo!
den i was trying to watch the movie..
he play2 with my hair..
comment2..bau wangi la..pakai syampoo ape la..bau gule2 la..wth!
den_____________
_____________________________
______________________________________
____________________________________________
_________________________________________________.
yang lain censored.taklah teruk sgt.actually malas nk type.
so only me and him tau wad happened.

i wonder if he still remember wad he said to me that night.
i mean the way how i look.
sebab i still remember.
flattered.
bukan tk pernah org compliment pakai word tu..
tapi the way he said it.."wow!"

and i knew from that moment..i want to be with him..forever.
but i keep it low profile..
sebab i suke simpan rahsie.
dan tk suke cakap pasal perasaan sendiri.

and till now..the feeling keeps growing and growing..
it wont stop..
i dont have any intention to make it stop anyway..
i love the way it is now..
and i love him more than anything in the world.
and i've learn to appreciate what i already have.
i just hope that im not a mistake from the beginning.
because if u ask me..
my life is almost complete now.i feel complete now.
he's like the piece of missing puzzle.and fits perfectly too.
i couldn't ask for more.

so, as a summary, i've been blessed by the gift of a lifetime. i repeat, a lifetime.

hunny bunny's list.

2006-09-06T10:24:00.000-07:00

eee.tadi balik je ade cicak jatuh atas kepale!!!
abeh ade bende masuk pantat plak.
wtf!!!
gelik siol!!!
mama cakap ade makne..
what??
nk mati eh?
haha.
good.
and so..
besok ade interview.
im so nervous.
really.
its not my first, but im so so nervous lah.
thanks to the loved ones for helping me with tips.
love u all.

anyway..went out with the love of my life.
boring date. my fault for not planning properly.
sorry.=(
but it was...nice?
whatever whenever it is. as long as there is u around,my day wld turn out great!
thank u my love.
i have a habit or admiring his arms.
the first thing that caught my eye in a guy is his lips or arms+hands.
how they are structured.the combination of bones and muscles.manly built fingers.
what a turn on!
not forgetting how strong they are too!
the way they hold u.
put it ard u just to comfort u and protect u when u're cold or wadeva.
cover and cupped ur face.
play with ur hair.
or simply hold ur hands.
and i love it when u kiss my forehead.
so..manis!
ok tis is going out of topic.
im psycho-ing again!

nyways..

Things to do for/to Hunny Bunny:
1)Bake brownie with nuts.
2)Cook creamy pasta and feed him.
3)~~Hold him tight.~~-done!
4)Look into his eyes and say "i love you".
5)Plan his birthday gift.

i hope i get the job.
because its been a long long time i go/went on a shopping spree.
im starting to lose my title as the shopping queen.
blech!

muachks.

3rd anni

2006-09-05T11:10:00.000-07:00

5th september 2006:
Cheers to our third anni.
i love u a lot.(no point saying;bcos i think u know that)
anyway yea..i love u i love u i love u.
c u soon baby.

thurs-7 sept:interview.
sat-9 sept:job fare(opt)

sister asked,"abeh ko tknk skola lagi?"
"naklah! aku nak diploma.."

i rejected nasrul invitation to the outing.
im feeling lazy..
and trying to occupy myself with things.
for instance, i revamp my room.
and the result is satisfying.
totally clean,pleasant smelling and in order.
gimme a few days and.. voila! berselerak balik...
ahaha.

and then while cleaning up the room,a lady call..
she was nice..
and tell me abt the info of the interview..
den i check my fone and der's dis unknown number.
guess who?
Ayus.
yea..that guy.
the ex-bf.
once i heard his voice, i knw it's him.
wtf.
i ask;"nak ape?"
him;"hey...just to inform u my new number.."
me;"urm..ok.so yg lame tk pakai lagi la?"
him;"tak..hey...urm."
i kept quiet.
him;"hey..."
me;"ape 'hey-hey' tkde name ke??"
him;"hey.....(pause)"
me;"ape?"
him;"...(pause)..miss u."
me;"why wld u??..."
me;"still rambling...
him;"i'll call u back later..(paiseh already).."
me;"org nk mandi ah"
him;"or i'll msg u later k.."
me;"ah...(tk kuase nk layan)"

kau mcm siak ah.
like as if i care yg die tukar nombor tkar baju ke tukar betina ke,tukar jantina ke..
wadeva la eh!
mcm sial..da sunyi sepi gitu ah..cari org balik.
dulu die jgk yg ckp"kau yg bastard aku!"
padahal tidak..tapi org ye kan aje..
jantan s*al.

dahlah..sapa mau layan.

cycling

2006-09-03T00:22:00.000-07:00

went cycling for almost 4hrs with brother.
went to pasir ris park: saw my ex-maid...
"ilaa!!! makin cantik kamu!!!(note:i was make-up free,merely in tshirt n 3/4 jeans,sweaty but sweet-smelling still [ahahah]=SLACK!!!)ngapain dipotong rambutnya? udah tidak sama lagi mcm marsha!")
wth.of all, die bebual pasal marsha..ahahaha.
then i salam her and she hug me and kiss me.
ok. i miss her.
i miss being a brat at home.
but things have to go the way they are planned...
so she'll end her contract with my ex-aunt.
dis tues...
and then we went to fish pond beside WS..
then to sunplaza park...
and along the way..
i had a fall.
a MAJOR ONE.
luckily kat highway.
tk rama org nampak.
abeh faleq nye siak.
die ketawekan nonstop.
org tgh kesakitan.
i know lah, mesti mcm nangke busok.
tapi sakit ok!
now there's bruises on my right ankle,a long one on my right buttcheek(wic give me a helluva time to sit properly) and i cut my right wrist.yay! at last tapi tk on purpose ...there are a few scratches but one stands out from the rest..so basically the right side of my body is not functioning properly.

thank god mama help ease the pain away.
thank you love.

so talking about this tues...
is already 3 mths for hunny bunny and me..but if u count prperly..shld be more...
this may sound psycho-ish.
but..
Can i grow old with you?
i would love to.(=

anyways...
girls?
is the camp confirm yet?
i wanna go to sentosa...

job status

2006-08-31T11:11:00.000-07:00

applied:11 jobs.
in process:2
no update:2
under consideration:2
wth.

i need to get out of the house.
it's been a long time i breathe in fresh air.
muahahaha.
a reason to dress up too.
and get my nail polish.

One... you're like a dream come true
Two... just wanna be with you
Three... boy it's plain to see... that your the only one for me
Four.. .repeat steps one through three
Five... make you fall in love with me
If ever I believe my work is done... then I start Back at One......

baru-baru je..

2006-08-30T05:18:00.000-07:00

i've been posting lotsa entries lately..please scroll down to read the crap...

Usia Pernikahan Mempengaruhi Kemesraan.......

Sebelum Tido:

6 minggu: selamat bobok sayang, mimpi indah ya, mmmuach.

6 bulan: tolong matikan lampu tu, silau ah.

6 tahun : Sanasikit lah... tido kalau tak mengepit tak bole eh???!

Pakai Toilet:

6 minggu: tak apa, u dulu aje lah, i tak buru2 .

6 bulan: masih lama tak nih?

6 tahun: brug! brug! brug! (suara pintu digegar), kalau nak bertapa pi
lah

gunung ledang sana!!

Balas SMS:

6 minggu: iye sayang, jap lagi i sampai ruma, i beli murtabak kesukaan
u..

6 bulan: trafik jam ah

6 tahun: k..

Dating process:

6 minggu: I love U, I love U, I love U.

6 bulan: Of course I love U.

6 tahun : Iyalah!! kalau i tak cintakan u, buat apa i nikah ngan u??

Pulang Keje:

6 minggu: Honey, i dah balik nih...

6 bulan : I'm BACK!!

6 tahun: Masak apa hari ini??

Hadiah (ulang tahun):

6 minggu : Sayang, i harap u menyukai cincin yang i beli

6 bulan : I beli lukisan, nampak sesuai dengan suasana ruang tengah

6 tahun : Nih duit, u beli sendiri lah apa yg u nak..

Telefon:

6 minggu: Baby, ada yang ingin bbual ngan u di telefon nih

6 bulan : Eh...your call...

6 tahun : WOOIII TELFON BUNYI TUUUHHH....ANGKAT AH!!!

Masakan:

6 minggu: Wah, tak sangka i, rasa makanan ini begitu lazaattt...!!!

6 bulan: Kita makan apa malam ini??

6 tahun: HAH? LAUK INI LAGI?

Memaafkan:

6 minggu: Sudahlah, tak apa, dah pecah pun, nanti kita beli lagi eh

6 bulan: Hati-hati! Nanti jatuh tuh.

6 tahun: Orang dah bilang berkali2 pon tak paham!!

Baju baru:

6 minggu: Aduh sayang, u seperti bidadari dengan pakaian itu

6 bulan: Lah.. beli baju baru lagi?

6 tahun: DAH BERAPA RIBU HABIS BELI BAJU TU???

Merancangkan Holiday:

6 minggu: Macam mana kalau kita jalan-jalan ke Amerika atau ke tempat
yg u

nak honey?

6 bulan: Kita ke Bukit Bintang aje ler ....senang sikit tak perlu naik

flight...

6 tahun: JALAN-JALAN??? DUDUK RUMAH AJE TAK BOLEH EH? BUANG DUIT JE!

TV:

6 minggu: Baby, apa yg kita nak tonton malam ini ?

6 bulan : Sekejap eh, citer bagus ah.

6 tahun: JANGAN TUKAR2 BOLE

yes or no

2006-08-29T01:48:00.000-07:00

1. You can only say YES or NO.
2. You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages you / comments and asks

1. Taken a picture naked? YES
2. Painted your room? YES
3. Made out with a member of the same sex? NO
4. Drove a car? NO
5. Danced in front of your mirror? YES
6. Have a crush? YES
7. Been dumped? YES
8. Stole money from friend? NO
9. Gotten in a car with people you just met? NO
10. Been in a fist fight? YES

11. Snuck out of your house? NO
12. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? YES
13. Been arrested? NO
14. Made out with a stranger? YES
15. Met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere? YES
16. Left your house with out telling your parents? YES
17. Had a crush on your neighbor? YES
18. Ditched school to do something more fun? YES
19. Slept in a bed with a member of the same sex? YES

20. Seen someone die? NO
21. Been on a plane? YES
22. Kissed a picture? YES
23. Slept in until 3PM? YES
24. Love someone or miss someone right now? YES
25. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? YES
26. Made a snow angel? NO
27. Played dress up? YES
28. Cheated while playing a game? YES
29. Been lonely? YES

30. Fallen asleep at work/school? NO
31. Been to a club? NO
32. Felt an earthquake? NO
33. Touched a snake? NO
34. Ran a red light? YES
35. Been suspended from school? NO
36. Had detention? NO
37. Been in a car accident? YES
38. Hated the way you look? YES
39. Witnessed a crime? YES

40. Pole danced? NO
41. Been lost? YES
42. Been to the opposite side of the country? YES
43. Felt like dying? YES
44. Cried yourself to sleep? YES
46. Sang karaoke? YES
47. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? YES
48. Laughed till some kind of beverage came out of your nose? YES
49. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? YES

50. Kissed in the rain? NO
51. Sing in the shower? YES
52. Made love in a park? YES
53. Had a dream that you married someone? YES
54. Glued your hand to something? YES
55. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? NO
56. Ever gone to school partially naked? NO
57. Been a cheerleader? NO
58. Sat on a roof top? NO
59. Didn't take a shower for a week? NO
60. Ever too scared to watch scary movies alone? NO
61. Played chicken? YES
62. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? NO
63. Been told you're hot by a complete stranger? YES
64. Broken a bone? NO
65. Been easily amused? YES
66. Laugh so hard you cry? YES
67. Mooned/flashed someone? YES
68. Cheated on a test? YES
69. Forgotten someone's name? YES

70. Slept naked? YES
71. Gone skinny dipping in a pool? NO
73. Blacked out from drinking? NO
74. Played a prank on someone? YES
75. Gone to a late night movie? YES
76. Made love to anything not human? YES
77. Failed a class? YES
78. Choked on something you're not supposed to eat? YES
79. Played an instrument for more than 10 hours? YES

80. Cheated on a girl/boyfriend? YES
81. Did you celebrate the 4th of July? NO
82. Thrown strange objects? YES
83. Felt like killing someone? YES
84. Thought about running away? YES
85. Ran away? NO
86. Did drugs? YES
87. Had detention and not attend it? NO
89. Made a parent cry? YES

90. Cried over someone? YES
91. Owned more than 5 sharpies? YES
92. Dated someone more than once? YES
93. Have a dog? NO
94. Own an instrument? YES
95. Been in a band? NO
96. Drank 25 sodas in a day? NO
97. Broken a cd? YES
98. Shot a gun? NO

stick with you

2006-08-28T10:52:00.000-07:00

"why do you still stick with me?"

you couldnt answer.
its a stupid question after all.
sorry sayang.
pardon my english.

thanks eh, for not being there on my birthday when the time comes.
take care of urself there.
just remember that there's someone who loves you more than anybody could possibly love ...
im not expecting anything from you.
i know u wont plan anything=expected.
but all i want is to spend time with you.
and of course u must plan the entire date.
is dat too much to ask for.?
maybe..
da lah..org tak mengharapkan ape-ape dari sesiape.
nak kasi,kasi.tknk,tkpe.
wont kecik hati.

i applied for a handful of jobs.
im still waiting for the employers to view my resume.
hope they like it.

i need a new nail polish.
hmm...what color shld i buy....

ps:nice bunch of people u've got there.ok let me rephrase that, u possessed a very nice clan.one day, im gonna get comfy with them.i will.i hope soon.=)
i love muhammad adli bin yusa.*roll eyes*
sorry cant help it.*wagging tongue*

pink bedsheet

2006-08-26T10:48:00.000-07:00

i feel-like i've been caught.
haha.
it's over.
right baby.?
so fri we went to compass point.
and i so love the snapple and mentos moments.
LoveItLikeFugg.
and sat meet again.
thanks for the accompany.
so during the ride, i talked about something.
about how i wish i'll meet u in 3-4 yrs time.
its difficult to understand y.
u see,nothing last forever.
i just dont want any barriers to seperate us.
i mean, im trying to be strong, i am.
it's just that sometimes things hppn unexpectedly.
but trust me, at the rate we are going.
nothing cn stop us.
hee.
so now, it has come to a point where i really love u a lot so much and i dont know what else to do or say.
so please understand.
i know u do.
i really love u.

so cheers to
-mummy's boy.
-the guy who msged me in the midst of wee hours and confessed that he's a lil bit tipsy and still in love with me.
-him, who treats accidents like normal activities whereas his gf worries like mad.
-blouse bunnies obsessor.
-the one who would still call me baby.whether he's angry, tired, pissed, happy, excited...
-he who makes feel inferior/timid everytime he hug me and crush my bones.eventho im big-sized.i like that.serious shit.

enuff said.
i know u guys know what im trying to deliver aye..

and so.
waiting for friends to finish up their papers..so we can go sentosa, cycling, picnic-ing..bla bla bla..

parents n bro comin back sun night.
so, the environment will be stiff again.
ergh.

13 days to celebration.
these are the things that i want but cant have:(
-pony bag
-red heels
-new phone
-24 hrs with bf( i mean it, twenty four hours!)
-bouquet of white lilies
-charm bracelet
basically, a shooping spree....

mmm....
ya.

jerks.idiots.dumbass.

2006-08-26T00:37:00.000-07:00

for ppl who's aneroxic or want to be one,
i have just the perfect solution to make u puke.
i found it in my AM;all those cheeky idiots,please get a life!!
just read on.....:

U know dear if god only made everything as beautiful as you the world will be such a pleasant place....Ok forgive me if I was a bit too cheeky there but u got a lovely smile and equally enchanting eyes. So can we be frends?

there is no standards in being friends is there?? so y not u kol me at 81074504

assalamualaikum kepada awak..hi..ridhwan here...tanx 4 accepting me as a fren...dat we can become frens 4 a long time..sori..apa tah kebenda aku type ni..take care always if u want u can add me to ur msn if have..my mail is wan_tzm@hotmail.com..tankiyu

hi... khai sini... sudi kenal dgn u... harap sudi balik... =) kalau nak kol pun ok jugak... my no. is 90010403... hope to hear fr u...
P.S- if my pic takde, check in one day's time... baru upload.... user baru ni... ;)

cute ah u...intro leh...

(nick:not ur property)
oh yes u are...

hello. cutenya muka awak. niwae, u ada msn tak? add me kalau ada k?
rizal_@hotmail.com
im male/28yrs..

halo... u nak chat offline..?

hi oleh kenal2
skl ne?
tinggal ne?
tolak la num..cm tk tau lak
my num is 90973342
btw add me tau kat msn..
add me at boboi_87@hotmail.com

hai...u attchd?...

halo....gambar u kat profile u to...one of it,a bit strange...

hi.. came across ur profile again. makin lawa u sekarang. siapa nama u? u dun mind kan chat wif me abit :)

u oleh kasi msn u or friendster
u oleh add me kat am

elo... leh buat membezzz???

hey baybee ur getting cuter and cuter eh...hows life?

semekomz~
ahaakkzz....care 2b frens??
=)

sweetface.

nape lah u ni cute sgt eh? tgk ur pic terus tak leh keja seh.... leh i tau nama u or senang bual nak knl2 leh hehehe

u open minded??

hi...manis sungguh... sumpah..!!

let play truth or dare insted..ur on?:P

hmmm bibir cute !!!

wat kinda game is dat?

hi baby.. how r ya?
hows life?
bila nak klua gan i?

hai.. bole kenal awak??? awak ni prperty agent ke??? :O)

hey thr...!!
how r u? i try my best to handle wif care...(",)

hi sayang.. if u dah subscribe pls reply to me k.. theres someting important i have to know abt u .. k dear~ :) anything add me in msn saidinahamzah@hotmail.com

heyya hot stuff.care to intro?

eloo u free i nk mit i so bored

aloamak cute nye...mcm nak cubit...da la..u go siap...skg jugak i amek u...jalan2

hai how's your day?hmm...ne way muka mcm i penah nampak ah pat plaza singapura dat time...hmm..=)anyway pape u leh sms me at 81325568 aft 8pm coz my hp pat dlm locker...hope 2 hear frm u then...byee....

alone.enola

2006-08-24T21:11:00.000-07:00

parents and bro went to KL/Genting dis morning.
sis left for school and will be back late.
left my aunt.
and me.
nd me.
d me.
me.
e.
.

maybe i'll be going out later to buy some food.
but no one ask me out.
self service again.
pathetic.
totally.
fuck u for making me feel this way.
but no matter how i hate u or call u names.
if u re-shuffle them, u'll always get I LOVE YOU in the end.
so now i hate myself.
fuck me for making me feel this way.
but no matter how i hate myself or call myself names.
if i re-shuffle them, i'll always be alive in the end.

ok.i'll stop it.
things are getting nowhere here.
im starting to develop into a gamefreak.
weeeee~
and im getting lesser and lesser of my beauty sleep.
and im unwell.never better.
imissu.

2006-08-22T10:09:00.000-07:00

fuck!
i have a new stalker.
actually the same old stalker.
shit!!
and he reallyX1000 000 wants to meet me upon knowing that i have a boyfriend.
what the hell/fuck!!
psycho!!!!!!!!!
and he tempt me that he'll buy me the pony bag that i saw while going out with bf if i mt him.and top up my hp for me.and pay my application fee too!!
c-buay-siao-ar.!!!
fuck
fuck
fuck
!!!

btw had a movie marathon.
final destination 1 2 3.
and im having fever and blocked nose.
i think im dying.
woohoo!
and i miss friends.
a whole chunk of them together.

2006-08-21T10:03:00.000-07:00

♥ this song!!!
i ♥ u more.

I Believe In You

I never believed in dreamin'
It never got me very far
I never believed that love could find me
Like an arrow through the heart
I never believed in miracles
Or building castles in the air
Not until that day I found you
Turned around and you were there

From the day you came
You gave me
A whole new point of view
I've been touched by an angel
It's impossible but true

I believe in you
I swear that forever from today
No one will ever take your place
I believe in you
And I believe our love will last always

I never believed in fairy tales
Though sometimes I wish I could
I never believed that golden slippers
Could ever find the perfect foot

I never believed in magic
Or that wishes could come true
But your very first kiss
Changed all this
Something only you could do

You make me a believer
You make me trust again
You showed me there's a pot of gold
At every rainbow's end

I believe in you
I swear that forever from today
No one will ever take your place
I believe in you
And I believe our love will last always

Only love
Sets you free
And if it's up to fate
Then you're my destiny

Now I know
Now I see
Anything can happen
If you just believe

I believe in you
I swear that forever from today
No one will ever take your place
I believe in you
And I believe our love will last always

I believe in you
I swear that forever from today
No one will ever take your place
I believe in you
And I believe our love will last always

I believe in you
I swear that forever from today
No one will ever take your place
I believe in you
And I believe our love will last always

___________________

i took my own sweet time and reached school a couple of minutes past four.
adi suddenly called.
i was in a tight position.
i had to decide at that time.
so i told him that i cant meet him due to the lack of time.
at sch,waitd for nad in the cr.
in the end i returnd the library books and mt nad at blk 25.
better.bcos its nearer to the pick-up point that bf and i chose.
i dont understand y he refuse to go in.
nvm.wont drag this minor problems.

when i reached the gate, he was already waiting.
i knew it.
on purpose i guess.
so yeah. we went to tamp int after that.
century square to buy the tix.
we watched Ghotst Game btw.
search for his father's b'dae card.(im sorry for not helping u to write the wishes).
eat at food culture.
and straight to the movies.
i was feeling rather weak and tired due to the sudden flu.
must be from faleq.
so now im a lil bit under the weather.
after that we check out the store at TM and he sent me home.
al last! i reached home by 10pm.
haha.
knowing me,slalunye kan after 12..
so yea.
it was a short date. but i enjoyed myself.
thank you LOVE.

Yesterday went to wak's bbq thingy.
nasrul accompanied me home.
thank you sweetheart.
we talked abit.
i learned something from him.
when there's a fight,eventho its not ur fault, just apologise.
maybe it will lighten the argument.
sometimes our ego get the whole of u.
dont let it happen.
i admit sometimes its my fault but it's just so difficult to say the S word.
u have to give and take anyway.

so i would like to apologise to any of u if i have done any mistakes and pardon me for not realising that i made it.
and to bf, im so sorry if all dis while.. i ever hurt u or disappoint u in ANY way that could possibly break ur heart.
tell me when u think its my fault.
i'd try to do someting bout it.
trust me.

and thank you nasrul.

oh btw,anak datuk k yg sulung tu hott jugak eh..
hahaha.
i wish siti all the best.

2006-08-20T00:43:00.000-07:00

THE 13TH DATE:

my family, darling and i went to jb.
shock of my life.
trust me, im still trying to get over it.

went to some eating place.
den to pasar pandan.
father bought him ciggies~!!
urgh!
two packets lagi!!
makdek!!
den we lepak at macdonalds.
ate ice cream and fries.
and then, the interview .
mama interview die habis.
buat malu je.
den si kat nam makcik kepo tu celah2.
sister=big-time-bitch.period.
and i hate it everytime she invite her friends home.
im always one of the topic to gossip about.
to hell with u la.
pls note that i dont have a normal sister.
i cant even share secrets with her.
fugg.
i dont know what else to say.

oh btw, siti nurhaliza is the most ________ creature on earth.
currently that is.

i still love u a lot, though.

2006-08-18T06:39:00.000-07:00

Current Favourite Colours: RED. BRONZE.

Facts:
Ancient Egyptian women risked their lives for it by dyeing their lips with a toxic mercury-based tint. Greek women painted theirs with crushed berries, while Roman ladies coated their mouths with sheep's blood.

Woohoo!
Best nyer.
all three methods i loike.

so darling decided to take part-time job.
which means he'll be too busy to spend time with me.again.
sigh.
how less do u want it?
damn u!

and once again, parents buat perangai sebab tknk me sch.
what the fuck!
bingit sak.
tak tau sabar2.
wadeva ah.

i've been super cranky for the past few days.
it WILL continue.
BEWARE!!!

2006-08-17T00:16:00.000-07:00

fatigue.
went to arab st.
ate at Pariaman.
i forced the spoons of rice down my throat.
urgh!
people wont believe me if i tell them i lost 3 kg in 2 days.
wee~
dats because i was playing the bad role.
i refuse to eat.
but i had to.
so i ate food in small portion.
and no eating after ten.
and no chocolates, ice - cream.

-
so after eating, i asked bibik along. to follow me buy the laces and a buckle.
yay!
laces babe!
favourite!

den mama bought us slippers.
i bought 3 pairs.
murah. 3 pairs altogether for 22 bucs (bf likes cheap stuff.he must be please!!!!!!!)
pretty plak tu.

tat will keep me happy for few days.
so its time to decide between fashion design at NAFA or Cosmoprof.
)(*&*^%%#&$$#^(*&!!!

2006-08-16T04:07:00.000-07:00

i hate it when ex-bfs or ex-lovers try to get all mush up with me.
step nak buat baik konon.
bodek-bodek.
sorry ah skit.
tak dapat ah.
chey! sounds like minahrep sak.
ok i'll stop it.
on a serious note, yes,i hate it when that happens.
weeks before, ex-bf suddenly called.
few days before, ex-lover msged me.
forwarded msgs.
malas ah nak layan.
tadi baru my ex-bf mintak number.
wtf?!
he left me just like that.
the least i could do is ignore him OR give him my number and get back at him.
but i chose the first.
see,i've changed.
not like before.
where i would symphatise with them and give them chance(s).
now: my tolerance for bullshit is fucking low.
please take note.
happy with bf now.
so please dont ever try ur luck and change my mind bout things.
i dont react to minor stuff.

KNNCCB!!

2006-08-15T01:50:00.000-07:00

Difference between Friends and Bestfriend

Friend: calls your parents by mr. and mrs.
Best friend: calls your parents dad & mom or tito & tita.

Friend: has never seen you cry
Best friend: has always has the best shoulder to cry on

Friend: never asks for anything to eat or drink
Best friend: opens the fridge & makes himself at home

Friend: asks you to write down your number.
Best friend: they ask you for their number
(cuz they can't remember it)

Friend: borrows your stuff for a few days then gives it back.
Best friend: has a closet full of your stuff

Friend: only knows a few things about you
Best friend: could write a biography on your life story

Friend: will leave you behind if that is what t! he crowd is doing
Best friend: will always go with you

Friend: will ask where you've been

(after going AWOL)

Best Friend: will say ! MISS YOU &

goes on being your friend

*******************
so i cant really decide between these TWO:

FASHION DESIGN

The Diploma in Fashion Design programme imparts well-rounded knowledge and skills for the fashion industry to the students. Students will study various industrial aspects and processes, including Fashion Design, Technology, Fashion Accessories, Furnishing and Fashion Fabrics. This course will foster a strong understanding of the skills necessary for design development and allow students the unique opportunity to explore new creative approaches.

VISUAL COMMUNICATION

The Diploma in Visual Communication programme trains the students in communication design. Students may major in Graphic Design / Advertising Design, Photography or Jewellery. Electives include Drawing, Digital Media Production, Photography / Digital Photo Media, Research Methodologies, and Design in Context.

I NEED HELP!!

*************************

Sblm brkhawin,berkali-kali bunga dibeli utk si jantung hati. Lps berkhawin jgn haraplah hdk dpt bunga berkali-kali.
Ini berlaku kerana tabiat kaum lelaki yang fokus. Mereka membeli bunga sebelum berkhawin kerana tujuannya satu-hendak mengawhini si gadis.
Tetapi, lepas berkhawin, org lelaki brpendapat membeli bunga hanya 'buang duit' kerana duit itu lebih baik digunakan utk perkara yg lebih penting seperti membeli rumah dan membiayai persekolahan anak.

Chit podah! tak dpt2 pon white lilies saye...bile agaknye eh bole dpt??
btw, black gothic rose masih segar, tegak berdiri kat pasu bunga di living room saye.aha.

so he's already in parents' good book(s).yay?
hee.
wee~

2006-08-13T02:57:00.000-07:00

pictures:sheesha-ing
venue:samar cafe, arab street

it was JAMPACKED.
so WE hated it.
and we decided to eat our fuckin big meals near the PADANG.
Carls Jr.
motherfucker.
buat burger besar-besar.
nak mamposkan orang agaknye.
sape-sape yang tak makan satu minggu gitu.
sila lah cekik burger kat sane.
LANTAK lah korang.

ok lah.
dapat jugak tengok fireworks.
biase ah. nasib asyik kene kepong pokok2 je.
KNNCCB!!!
but we were busy stuffing ourselves with our burgers.
den due-due da kembong. da boncit macam mak buyong.
cari tempat nak rilek pulak.
ahaha.
jadi boleh sandar sebab perut masing-masing da memboyak.
aha.
so we went to the padang area.
org ramai jugak.
buat picnic siol.
ish.
singaporeans, singaporeans.
ape nak jadi.
semalam kalau marina kene bomb pon sajak.
ahaha.
especially kat tepi bay sane..kat esplanade.
fuyoo! macam nak rak la siak. penuh dengan manusie.
duduk, diri, baring, terbongkang, menyekik, menyangkong, terkakang..macam-macam la.
ish ish ish.

so balik naik 12.
nasib ade bus.
sebab tak sanggup nak naik train.
so it was a fuckin long journey.
darling sent me home.
we walked from pasir ris interchange to my flat.
so far tak pernah jantan-jantan sial yang dulu-dulu anta aku balik.
aku anta dorang adelah.
so im like the luckiest girlfriend on earth.
serious speaking.
so ya..faleq sume tengok-tengok kat tingkap..
mama suro bf masok.
step malu-malu kucing konon.
den after a few minutes of persuading..
he went home took cab.
poor baby.

..kekasih awal dan akhir..

2006-08-11T09:53:00.000-07:00

who i'd like to meet:

gosh! just look at him. poor boy.
i dont mind if he want to eat up my flesh.
especially the extras.

2006-08-09T03:47:00.002-07:00

unsatisfied.
because i didnt get to see the fireworks clearly.
there's more on fri and sat.
please ask me out.
i promise i'll leave my pms at home.
i think, by then..finish already.

2006-08-07T02:39:00.000-07:00

Why do women have smaller feet?

The human skeleton is balanced for maximum efficiency. It takes something major to alter the body's engineering needs.

The weight from breasts, even very large breasts, is not nearly enough of a factor.

All other things being equal, a woman with very large breasts is no more likely to have a problem keeping her balance than a human of identical height with very small breasts and with identical sized feet.

Meaning that i wont be able to give excuses such as "i'm late because my tits are too heavy too handle" again. But sometimes i can really feel the weight. Especially when running. Serious talking here. I hate running because my tits are quite big and it hurts when they bounce(even when there's sport bra on). So this IS a major problem for me.

Anyway, tomorrow going to bugis again. NAFA registration. And by the way, i'm not sure yet what course to pursue in. wth. I've got a few hours to decide. I'm like so dead. HELP!

And at night, there's another event of fireworks. yay! There are more on friday and saturday too!

Can't wait to go shopping!!

2006-08-06T04:11:00.000-07:00

" **hav fun without me**i noe u will.. "
WHAT KIND OF STUPID NICK IS THAT??
I REALLY HOPE IT'S NOT ABOUT ME.
BUT MY GUT FEELING TELLS ME OTHERWISE.
SIGH.

thanks for making me wait for hours.
thanks for spoiling my mood.
thanks for talking to father.
thanks for the elephant ride.(=

fourth place = winner.
hardcore.

ok so no fireworks for me.
no proper date.
no nothing.
reached home at about three.

but what happened was priceless.

2006-08-05T02:09:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 2ND-MONTH SAYANG.
I LOVE YOU.
I LOVE YOU.
I LOVE YOU.